hi bloggie... Just a footnote... yes this blog is functioning and very well. thank u v much.. ha... was kind of having the adult's life of work and no play... some days... the others, i manage to get outings, and dinners and even a BBQ! ha.... guess, i still love school....
anyhow... looked thru' the month's blog... seem like not much of updates...and some emotional bumps... gonna have a mega update and post out more photos... real soon, once i get my ass down to do it...
sorry to the gang for not able to join u guys for dinner.... dunno if u guys have it in the end... i had plans made....
sorry again for not being able to attend this coming 7 oct gathering.... i also have plans arranged.... really hope to see u guys soon
agu
treading on thin line
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Thursday, September 14, 2006
remember me this way
hi bloggie... i reckon i cannot have free time on me... y? cause when i have free time, i will ANYHOW let my mind wander.. rather like wat peh say... worry.... i'm a born worrier.. tt's y i am always consider situation before action... tt's ppl will say i am the rational thinker...
but.. the only thing tt differs... i act on impulse... sometimes, i just do things in fits of emotion and wat results would be dire consequences which is not pleasant... regret the consequences not the action... tt's wat i always say... y? coz, wat is done had past... what u dwell on is wat is the result... some say... regret the action deal wif the consequence.. maybe their explaination is more wise... but.. liek i say.. born worrier... always dwell on consequences...
wat happen last nite.. i agree to a huge extend was impulse, anger... irritatable... and my thinking... ha! i admit it... do i regret was i say... yes... y? coz, wat i say did happen... but i lose something... understanding... i am not that magnimous person... i am not...
i guess.. last nite is wat i call a nervous breakdown.. i am ashamed wat i had done... i realli am..
u... u have always been strong... and u grew stronger that i can nv imagine... jia you bah...
just rbr me the agu.. u know 3 years ago...
http://www.ziplo.com/RememberMe.html
this song... from the movie casper... this song... only now i can fully gasped wat it meant...
remember me this way... i hope u do...
agu
but.. the only thing tt differs... i act on impulse... sometimes, i just do things in fits of emotion and wat results would be dire consequences which is not pleasant... regret the consequences not the action... tt's wat i always say... y? coz, wat is done had past... what u dwell on is wat is the result... some say... regret the action deal wif the consequence.. maybe their explaination is more wise... but.. liek i say.. born worrier... always dwell on consequences...
wat happen last nite.. i agree to a huge extend was impulse, anger... irritatable... and my thinking... ha! i admit it... do i regret was i say... yes... y? coz, wat i say did happen... but i lose something... understanding... i am not that magnimous person... i am not...
i guess.. last nite is wat i call a nervous breakdown.. i am ashamed wat i had done... i realli am..
u... u have always been strong... and u grew stronger that i can nv imagine... jia you bah...
just rbr me the agu.. u know 3 years ago...
http://www.ziplo.com/RememberMe.html
this song... from the movie casper... this song... only now i can fully gasped wat it meant...
remember me this way... i hope u do...
agu
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
moody
hi bloggie... in a bloody mood.. didn't know wat overcame me... the website cheated me... i didn't enjoy myself today.. and that bloody eye of mine is irritating me...
i feel like taking a knife and stab my eye...
hai... i just dun feel good ok.... i dunno... now my phone is silent... i guess u were irritated too.. i realli tried to perk myself up... be it medication or myself.. i just can't do it... realli can't....
all i wan was a nice chat... but i doubt u can give me that... i only feel u get irritated... u know.. tt pains me more.... i hate it when everyone tells me... hey, ur best fren leh... or ur best fren XXX.... y i hate it... cause i starting to be a stranger to u... i dun noe anything bout u anymore... it hurts me u know... hurts me... coz, i feel like i am just a nobody... last time, i am the one tt says, hey... she my best fren.. dun bully her hor...now all i say is... dunno... do u have the single idea how sad tt feels...
wo hao lei... i really am... i tried to tell u my prob... but i guess u choose to ignore it.. rather.. postpone... i know... u said u would reply.. but i guess the email will nv come...
i am disappointed wif u... more so wif myself... if only u knew... i guess... i dun wan to be like this anymore... allow me to cry one more night... allow me to be one more night... tml... tml, i will be strong.. i will not bother u le... i thank u for wat u bought to me all these years... thank u tt day when i feel so wanted when i called u after math paper when i knew i was going to flunk... thank u for toking to me on the phone tt day when i fell out wif the ting while u were having chalet... thank u for toleranting my tears after all these years... thank u for sharing wat meant alot to u... thank u for making me ur buddy... thank u...
this is not goodbye... but i guess, i need to get used bah.. like u say... get used....
do u know i was waiting for the day where we were v close...
i guess i got tired of waiting... i waited for near to a year liao...
agu
maybe my expectation was too high.. but u were indeed better to others than to me....
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hai... after the night pass... my eye stop throbbing.. i am thankfull. but my stomach is hungry le... hmm, i feel better le... cry finish le... thanks peh for chatting wif me... he said i just needed a break.. maybe i did.... i pressure myself too much... thankful of mx to chat wif me... u are someone i nv expect would.. as in i didn't expect u to chat.. but i am grateful
for u: i dunno how u will react... i just thot maybe i shld tell u wat is running in my mind.. if u are affected... i'm sorry.. but that's how i felt... if u are unmoved... maybe... just maybe let me know... so i can learn to stop lying to myself....
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i feel like taking a knife and stab my eye...
hai... i just dun feel good ok.... i dunno... now my phone is silent... i guess u were irritated too.. i realli tried to perk myself up... be it medication or myself.. i just can't do it... realli can't....
all i wan was a nice chat... but i doubt u can give me that... i only feel u get irritated... u know.. tt pains me more.... i hate it when everyone tells me... hey, ur best fren leh... or ur best fren XXX.... y i hate it... cause i starting to be a stranger to u... i dun noe anything bout u anymore... it hurts me u know... hurts me... coz, i feel like i am just a nobody... last time, i am the one tt says, hey... she my best fren.. dun bully her hor...now all i say is... dunno... do u have the single idea how sad tt feels...
wo hao lei... i really am... i tried to tell u my prob... but i guess u choose to ignore it.. rather.. postpone... i know... u said u would reply.. but i guess the email will nv come...
i am disappointed wif u... more so wif myself... if only u knew... i guess... i dun wan to be like this anymore... allow me to cry one more night... allow me to be one more night... tml... tml, i will be strong.. i will not bother u le... i thank u for wat u bought to me all these years... thank u tt day when i feel so wanted when i called u after math paper when i knew i was going to flunk... thank u for toking to me on the phone tt day when i fell out wif the ting while u were having chalet... thank u for toleranting my tears after all these years... thank u for sharing wat meant alot to u... thank u for making me ur buddy... thank u...
this is not goodbye... but i guess, i need to get used bah.. like u say... get used....
do u know i was waiting for the day where we were v close...
i guess i got tired of waiting... i waited for near to a year liao...
agu
maybe my expectation was too high.. but u were indeed better to others than to me....
[edit]
hai... after the night pass... my eye stop throbbing.. i am thankfull. but my stomach is hungry le... hmm, i feel better le... cry finish le... thanks peh for chatting wif me... he said i just needed a break.. maybe i did.... i pressure myself too much... thankful of mx to chat wif me... u are someone i nv expect would.. as in i didn't expect u to chat.. but i am grateful
for u: i dunno how u will react... i just thot maybe i shld tell u wat is running in my mind.. if u are affected... i'm sorry.. but that's how i felt... if u are unmoved... maybe... just maybe let me know... so i can learn to stop lying to myself....
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Sunday, September 10, 2006
redang!
hi bloggie.. was suppose to be in bed.. but now sending files to kengsley for redang.. so i thot, might as well blog wif the lil photos i have while i wait for the mass loads of photos kengsley gonna burn...
well, it was a bus ride up to merang jetty.. a long long long long long long long long..... long bus ride... up to the east side of west malaysia... and while we waited for the ferry to cuts the water surface to the lil island, we visited the tandas as well as filling out bellies! and the first word the toilet lady said to me was in melayu! ha... i guess she reckon i was malay or an indigenous malaysian... oh well... i am a singaporean chinese... but hey, i sort of guess wat she was toking about... maybe, i can consider learning malay as a third language...
anyway... was pretty hype up for the ferry ride... but end up seeing pitch black instead of scenery... hahaha.. fall back to sleep and woke up just as the ferry arrive at the jetty.... WELCOME TO REDANG! hahaa.... hover ard, lunch, checked in and to the seas....
snorkelling was fun....the 3 snorkel trips, seen lots of marine life.... fishes, eel, squid, sharks, fishes, lots of ppl in life jacket hovering on water surface wif snorkel and mask.... nice! swim and sun tanning (not tt i need any more vitamin D) walking by the beach and exhausting muscles.... having wonderful weather and crystal clear water... redang is perfect! hmmm, seem the near to full moon, the night walk, the hike, the photo takings! ha... this trip was enjoyable... and completed wif kengsley, amy(baba), and meihui!
back to sg, exhausted and attained an even darker tanned degree i didn't imagined!
perfect destination
wanna jump into water...
the clear water... the wind... and my messy hair...
front of the deck and 4 noisy tourists
exhausted yet satisfied me!
agu
well, it was a bus ride up to merang jetty.. a long long long long long long long long..... long bus ride... up to the east side of west malaysia... and while we waited for the ferry to cuts the water surface to the lil island, we visited the tandas as well as filling out bellies! and the first word the toilet lady said to me was in melayu! ha... i guess she reckon i was malay or an indigenous malaysian... oh well... i am a singaporean chinese... but hey, i sort of guess wat she was toking about... maybe, i can consider learning malay as a third language...
anyway... was pretty hype up for the ferry ride... but end up seeing pitch black instead of scenery... hahaha.. fall back to sleep and woke up just as the ferry arrive at the jetty.... WELCOME TO REDANG! hahaa.... hover ard, lunch, checked in and to the seas....
snorkelling was fun....the 3 snorkel trips, seen lots of marine life.... fishes, eel, squid, sharks, fishes, lots of ppl in life jacket hovering on water surface wif snorkel and mask.... nice! swim and sun tanning (not tt i need any more vitamin D) walking by the beach and exhausting muscles.... having wonderful weather and crystal clear water... redang is perfect! hmmm, seem the near to full moon, the night walk, the hike, the photo takings! ha... this trip was enjoyable... and completed wif kengsley, amy(baba), and meihui!
back to sg, exhausted and attained an even darker tanned degree i didn't imagined!
perfect destination
wanna jump into water...
the clear water... the wind... and my messy hair...
front of the deck and 4 noisy tourists
exhausted yet satisfied me!
agu
Monday, September 04, 2006
footnote
hi bloggie... sorry for no updates... hmm, well, not in the mood of blogging and updates... not even now... leaving a foot note.... leaving for redang lata @ 10 pm... will be back on thurs... an awaited break that i hope make me reconsider life's path
should not have read message log... find tt life is realli different... should not have read blog... find that, i wasn't in there...
i may sigh, i may cry.. but i will stand happy...
i hope...
thanks for the message this morning... just when i thot coldness will sink in, a warmth of hope crept thru.... my wishful thot was to have u as company, which is not possible.. ha!
i love the year 2005 (first half of the year).
i hate the year 2005 (2nd half of the year)... wif the enterence...
2006... so far... tears and laughter... i dunno any longer...
wat is the definition of bud?
i crease to know..
agu
miss u as always...
should not have read message log... find tt life is realli different... should not have read blog... find that, i wasn't in there...
i may sigh, i may cry.. but i will stand happy...
i hope...
thanks for the message this morning... just when i thot coldness will sink in, a warmth of hope crept thru.... my wishful thot was to have u as company, which is not possible.. ha!
i love the year 2005 (first half of the year).
i hate the year 2005 (2nd half of the year)... wif the enterence...
2006... so far... tears and laughter... i dunno any longer...
wat is the definition of bud?
i crease to know..
agu
miss u as always...