Wednesday, August 31, 2005

proj made me tired

hi bloggie... got pretty caught up wif proj.. my life revolve ard it.. tired out.. haha..

sun, 28 aug
hmm, studied for BTN.. gotten the blue.. not realli in the mood.. maybe is becoz of BTN. haha.. thankful for Dora And Yanjing.. Did Cheer me up.. haha. a lil.. but, not enuff to make me realli hyper.. so results= a very sian me.. haha.. how dreadful... hmm, in the end didn't study much for BTN.. was watching TV.. hmm... got home run, Charlie's angel full throttle, Calendar girls, can helsing.. haha.. all ard the same timing.. ahha.. so, i channel surf... haha... then online then sleep

mon, 29 aug
hmm woke up, study some more for BTN.. but i think the notes dun like my brain,.. dun stick inside.. haha.. watched some parts of this show... hmm the title can't rbr.. got tom hanks! haha.. he is a brilliant actor.. i always thot so *nods* then BTN test.. was slightly late.. door got locked.. *horrors*.. tt's y i dun like forday.. thankfully, got other latecommers.. so.. meaning, if alot ppl dun take.. he is going to fail the cohort.. ahha.. stupid paper... not having an answer is also an answer.. so.. hai.. stupid.. home after tt.. tired so sleep.. then maple i think.. haha.. then msn loh

tue 30 aug
hmm, proj day.. do proj.. haha.. whole day is do proj.. cell culture, dilution, spread plate... autoclave.. everything.. aha.. then staff student day. did not attend.. hmm, then read thru prac manual.. dunno wat to study for prac tml.. msn.. haha.. fun...

hmm, short entries.. coz, dunno wat to write.. hmm, oh yesterday, mom and sis went to the hungry ghost tt kind of dinner.. did not go.. coz, i v sian.. dun realli enjoy such functions. ahaha... then realli enjoyed msn.. although there was a minor hiccup tt day.. ahha..

hmm, anyway, thanks fren(s) for all ur encouragement and wat u said.. thanks ...
=)

-=:agu:=- Yellow Ribbon Project.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

is things realli tt way

hi bloggie... hmm, today was quite okay.. seem quite some time since i blogged.. being lazy and quite bz.. and tired out... well...

fri, 26 aug
hmm, woke up early to collect sample.. sungei buloeh need permission.. wasted trip.. then, going to sungei buloeh was not hard.. took a cab there.. the getting out was like @@.. haha. coz, how to get out? gra and me sat at bus stop.. looking at the signboard, is the bus coming? panicky, called up frens to help.. thanks... lucky for us, a cab came, after gra said, "should we call a cab?".... haha.. then labrador park... collected 15 l of water... and lil samples.. head back to school.. called a cab this time.. then filtered water, prepared medium... tired out... LSS lec, was impt, but not listening.. bored by forday.. hmm, then meet up Dr. Zaman regarding IAP.. finally is my turn to IAP le.. half looking forward, half sian.. hope things will be fine.. then worked... hmm, no one from gang till late nite.. siang till 10... thankful for gracina for waiting.. thanks =)... wailing and waimun was listening to this old cow's tale... hmmm, life just moved... then accompanied szeyin.. haha.. then home zzz..

sat 27 aug
hmmm, lunch then slack then work.. *yawn*.. box again... but today quite good.. i was complement by 2 differenct customers... made my evening rocks.. haha.. in the meantime was wondering is the presentation by our prime minister on national day rally the cause of this display of complement... haha.. anyway... today work was okay... bz at times.. used to it anyway... tired.... oh ya... leilany and me is like super blind today... haha... overlooked a $10 voucher.. i'm glad i up tt money..

hmmm, the week is over soon... the next is coming.. tests are coming.. break is coming, exams are coming... then wat next? IAP... hmmm, 3 more weeks.. after which, my life will be different...
congrats to BIT pals, SIP is over le... =) have a good rest... a break is for continuing the long journey... =) xian.. welcome back to part timer gang... back to being my senior again.. -.-
peh, lai.. urs coming along.. hang in there...

today, i felt time changed...
today, i felt things changed...
today, i felt life changed...
today, i felt situations changed...
today, i felt circumstances changed...
dunno y?
maybe they did. but i took a long time to notice?
maybe they just changed?
maybe i was denying it?
maybe i hate it?
maybe i am not me?
but it all bolts back to i missed...

-=:agu:=- we were strangers starting our on journey

Thursday, August 25, 2005

science!?

hi bloggie... in awe of Dan Brown's words... a single paragraph describe science that makes me feel ashamed yet proud!

wed 24 aug
hmmm, after posting pic went out to meet rene n siang for Napola! hmm, rene's fren and her fren's fren also came... had dinner at this jap place which i dunno.. quite like the egg noodle i had.. a lil salty thou. hmmm, Napola, about the Nazis... my kind of movie! hahaha =p... i am historian of some sort.. haha... no lah.. more of a history student.. but Nazis was one of the topic i was realli interested when i was studying history... Hitler! he was one remarkable man... the movie was okay.. watched at Cineleisure... hmmm... coz GV no show.. haha.. but long time since i stepped into cine's cinema.. the last time was the stuant Lil 2.. and is coz of my mum's office event.. haha... hmmm, got alot of things to complain.. haha... y they still say cine better... *pouts* haha.. saw timothy.. hehe.. say i betray GV ah.. watch movie there.. and we were in front of the CB counter there.. haha.. after movie.. home... but go long way.. coz siang dun wan walk.. so from toa payoh we alight and take a bus... i dun mind.. concession rules! haha...

thurs 25 aug
hmm, WISP.. haha... then realli liked the slides Ms Kumar had.. the lines were nice.. but my brain cannot rbr all.. hmm, not even some.. haa.. but nonetheless inspirational.. haha.. then lunch and FYP.. oh boy.. we did a whole day FYP... all the way till 6.30.. lab close... proud of myself.. tml, gonna go collect sample.. turning in soon

hmm, anyway, recently fallen in love with books again.. so tends to have quote here and there... wonder if it mean something to someone else... haha.. even if it doesn't i still write.. haha.. but this time.. this one realli kept me thinking.. haha. since when i'm not... the only time i wasn't thinking is when the brain decide to declare defeat... till then... keep working brain.. my point is, wat i wrote here is to remind me things or words that i shld noe or rbr. and i would like to share this thot wif u... read on.. the quotes are long, mind boggling.. but also mean something....

quoting from Angels and Demons, pg 419-422
"Science may have alleviated the miseries of disease and drudgrey and provided an array of gadgetry for our entertainment and convenience, but it has left us a world without wonder. Our sunsets have been reduced to wavelengths anf frequencies. The complexities of the universe have beem shredded into mathematical equations. Even our self worth as human beings has being destroyed. Science proclaims that Planet Earth and its inhabitants are a meaningless speck in the grand scheme. A cosmic accident."
"Even the technology that promises to unite us, divide us. Each of us is now electronically connected to the globe, and yet we feel utterly alone. We are bombarded with violence, division, fracture, and betrayal. Skepticism has become a virtue. Cyniscism and demand for proof has become enlightened thought. Is it any wonder that humans now feel more depressed and defeated than they have at any point in human history? Does science hold anything sacred? Science looks for answers by probing our unborn fetuses. Science even presumes to rearrange our DNA. It shatters God's world into smaller and smaller pieces in quest of meaning... and all it finds is more questions."
"Science, you say, will save us. Science, I say, has destroyed us. Since the days of Galileo, the church has tried to slow the relentless march of science, sometimes with misguided means, but always with benevolent intention. Even so, the temptations are so great for man to resist. I warn you, look around yourselves. The promises of science have not been kept. Promises of efficiency and simplicity have bred nothing but pollutions and chaos. We are a fractured and frantic species... moving down a path of destruction."
"Who is this God Science? Who is the God who offers his people power but no moral framework to tell you how to use that power? What kind of God gives a child fire but does not warn the child of its dangers? The language of science comes with no signposts about the good and the bad. Science textbooks tells us how to create a nuclear reaction, and yet they contain no chapter asking us if it is a good or bad idea."

there is much more that kept me thinking.. but i also not that lazy to type.. and encourage ppl to read this book... gracia intro it to me.. aha.. hmm, to me, these few pages mean something to me. its not just how science have progressed, but how science is progressing.. and the truth is scary.. i am excited at the opportunities of new technology.. considerin a science student myself.. but, i must say.. the over enthusicism, can end us all..
of coz, i am not encouraging ppl to follow religion blindly.. and have nothing against any religion.. i myself is a free thinker.. coz, i choose to... i am more spiritual then religous.. i believe there is a god.. but i have not chosen mine yet. the most impt thing i believe, a religion teach u to be good not evil... its the human that is tainted with evil.. not the faith.. so embrace ur religion.. but wisely... dun just follow for the sake of following.. build up ur morals and u can go far... haha...


angels and demons

-=:agu:=- We may have the technology but we lack the human touch

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

photo crazy

hi bloggie.. since i'm free.. i decided to put up some photo for viewing! haha.. using my phone to take.. resolution no as good.. ahha..


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gracina, my disciple... haha.. claim dun haf her photo.. so here it is...

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Me and andy.. also my disciple.. haha..

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massage?

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this is wailing.. finally can see how she look like le bah.. ah siao!

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lai and peh.. dun u think they are so bright! haha..

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we are segregated! haha... *note got the line seperate us*

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JacQ.. pretty ah!

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tt's me.. in office which look like warehouse *note stuff behind me*... taken via gracina new phone.. part of my dream phone!

-=:agu:=-

maid?

hi bloggie.. today was an okay day for me... =) haha.. not too bad... just some sad moments.. but overall, had fun...

sun, 21 aug
hmmm, today, was quite sad for me.. not realli, but upset quite a no. of ppl, including myself.. but, glad the day was over, and guilt was cleared! haha.. worked CB closing wif xian, and sunny... then waited for EOS that is Siang and Lai... Vanny auntie nite.. haha.. had a good time to chat wif her.. think she also like to chat wif us bah... haha.. better appreciate us before we are gonez orh.. haha.. then went home... haha.. then was reading my book before slping...

mon, 22 aug
went to school to do BTN.. sianz... do so many days.. but we finished before deadline.. and i realli think i up good at image composer now.. aha.. being the editor of the layout.. i edit till my eye pop out.. but ziwei better.. calculation.. u are the pro man! haha.. janice was good wif writing.. and she give me the initial layout.. but thanks guys.. but pon lec in the end.. was waiting for ziwei they all.. but late.. since late pon... i was waiting wif gracia at benches there.. fell asleep.. first time sleep at benches... tired out.. then went home.. also sleep.. nv study for IL2... sianz

tue 23 aug
hmm, today got IL2 written test.. sian.. no study.. then dunno wat teacher test.. only noe how to do some = to none.. haha.. fail liao! haha.. then went to do proj... haha... then lunch.. then proj... nhaha.. then went to home ground for valiant and the maid! super nice! valiant was funny.. me and ah peh and siang watch together gather! haha.. then me and ah peh are laughing like no body's biz... then the maid was ok lah.. scary to some extent.. but the movie is shot to standard.. close to chinese context yet gives u the chills.. and ah peh watch it! haha. force by ah siang.. poor peh.. siang, peh, me, adida, francia, francia's fren and leilany watched together... haha.. in the end, except siang.. they more scare then me... coz, i am the scaredy cat.. haha.. i was like.. its ok.. nvm de.. relax... chill.. haha.. then in office.. do some stuff for jacQ.. haha.. photo crazy.. hmmm but quite lazy to post...

quoting from Angels and Demons by Dan Brown
"The planet is an organisms. All of us are cells with different purpose. And yet we are intertwined. Serving each other. Serving the whole."
how true! haha.. and the use of the word cells.. made me closer to home! haha...

"Death is only a byproduct of terrorism"
"Terrorism is not an expression of rage. Terrorism is a political weapon."
Is that why ppl kill?

hmmm go figures...
oh ya.. felt evil not sharing... but, i cannot make decisions here.. and not only affects me... so sorry ppl.. i can help u wat i can.. but pls dun ask for the whole thing..

-=:agu:=- "In the end we are all just searching for truth, that which is greater than ourselves" from Angels and Demons

Sunday, August 21, 2005

out and under

hi bloggie... hmm, not bad.. today was fun... but, now, still early, haha.. and i am at home le... a lil not used... was thinking, when the day i quit GV, will i get used? or have i sold myself away? haha..

fri 19 aug
hmm, late for BTN.. overslept again.. tsk tsk tsk.. pls scold me... then did major stuff for BTN... had IAP briefing.. i am officially posted to IMCB @ biopolis.. located at buoena vista... hmm.. looked at the time.. am i destined to be a slave at work.. cruel 6 day week, wif full day shift... 9.5 hours on weekdays, 9 hours on sat, will i get used? or am i being used? hopefully, there is somethings that aren't there.. haha...i meant, hopefully not working all the 6 days stated... explain logbooks recording, and the sorts of regular instructions.. then worked at candy bar.. henry is my trainee, henry is indonesian attachment student, like leilany and francia... then, peh till 12 plus... then wailing and wai mun @ box.. causing chaos.. my sis is wai mun trainer... haha.. poor li kheng.. vomit blood.. so helped out to clear the mess... got home @5 am....

sat 20 aug
woke up at 12.. then meet up wif yj and gang @ PS.... haha.. they watch charlie and the chocolate factory... haha... got yj, jh, dora, ivy, long fei, huilin, nicholas, derrick, sianghoe and selvin.. i deliver them their tix.. then went to rot... coz, i watched the movie b4 le.. so went to rot at starbucks... bought Dan Brown's Angels and Demons.. recommended by gracia... after they finished wif the movie, meet up with them with xian for dinner.. had my indonesian chicken drumstick rice @ the food court.. yum yum! haha... long fei treat me like a tree... she like koala bear... haha... then she went off early to get some stuff at TM, selvin left @ raffles MRT...while we proceed to esplanade... walk walk... see see... chit chat... sit there... ka jiao yj and jh... haha... gotten my hyper mood... haha... then went home... haha... early lah.. was actually watching the tubby and drinking volka from 7-11.... haha...

actually today, not v good mood.. but see my frens did make me smile.. thanks...

was feeling sianz, so drank up that mild volka drink.... haha... so lil, 4%.... but wat to do.. 7-11, nth more...

on the TV, quoting from Drive me crazy

"Yes, I always wanted that, but when i get it, it doesn't mean a thing"

haha. i noe, similar to tt quote i wrote before.. but, i realli think, it reflected how i felt.. at that pt... sometimes, when we finally get wat we desired, we lost that interest in the first place... then, by then, we already crave for something else.....

"Being Sensitive or hypocrite"
this quote, i come up myself de... today, i was asking myself... is being sensitive the same as being a hypocrite... i dislike hypocrite.. but i feel myself turning into one... i dun like to lie, but i find that, i am coming up with things that are censored before publishing... haha.. maybe i shld work at MDA (media development authority) aka censorship board.... haha... did i wrote wat i wrote here, tt is being censored out, due to me being sensitive, or am i a hypocrite.. or even decieving myself? sometimes, wat i wrote is due to promise... sometimes, wat i wrote can realli hurt.. sometimes, wat i wrote must please everyone... haha.. so answer me, am i being sensitive or hypocrite.. alas! i no longer know.... think will get split personality soon... having 2 faces...

-=:agu:=- Being sensitive or hypocrite?

Friday, August 19, 2005

its me

hi bloggie... today... still feeling sick... rain heavily.. leg aching.. jia let.. hmmm, then, did RPMI medium... ahha... lots of trouble.. haha.. then now, lazing.. doing BTN in a while... being doing it.. but not much done... mind wandering.. today WISP is okay...

sian.. now mind not concentrating at all... maybe i shld not have existed...

listening to my songs.. and listening to the song jie kou.. i realli like it... i liked jay chou's music

" 如果要走 請你記得我 "

it now distinctively mean something to me.. i dunno y... if leaving is a must, pls rbr me...

-=:agu:=- Left...

Thursday, August 18, 2005

died

hi bloggie...

am dead...

-=:agu:=- so dead

maybe

hi bloggie.... tired out... think i falling sick.. or have i? sneezing like crazy.... help? haha...

sun 14 aug
watched land of the dead wif xian, and siang... hmmm, gross but better than dawn of the dead.. not bad... wasn't cursing as much.. haha... rbr hse of wax, i was like ****, omg, wat the.... haha... this time rd.. not as much.. coz, i dun like gross stuff.. and got xia dao... then worked flr... wah... bz sia... aircon break down to rated movies to false fire alarm.. running like ah siao like tt... leg pain... =x then wailing kc.. help her... see i hao ren.. haha... then home... do BTN... and sleep...

mon, 15 aug
hmmm, school's ok... sian.. but ok.. then home then went to watch seven swords at yishun wif rene and xian.. hmmm.. not my cup of tea... ahha... like the swords.. but the story quite lousy... haha... then saw leilany... at yishun interchange...home, coughing coughing

tue, 16aug
missed lec... coz overslept.. then FYP.. then went to bishan.. was supposed to take over auntie sew kee de.. but, arrive at 7.. see no pt in working.. n not bz... then stayed ard.. coz xian EOS= cab... haha.. her partner is wailing.. ahha.. and stay in amk.. so confirm got cab.. then i also injured my leg.. sianz... then write project update... ahha..

wed 17 aug
meet up for BTN.. haha.. then went for IL-2.. haha.. ok loh.. then today grabiel drive.. so got transport to bishan.. then went to J8... watch bewitched wif siang, cheow tee and xian.. haha.. quite like it.. i luv nicole kidman.. she is good.. the story is actually ok.. dun understand the poor ratings..

actually not in the mood for blogging.. not feeling well.. out...

-=:agu:=- At the end of the day, its fated....

Sunday, August 14, 2005

miss

hi bloggie.. back from work.. today work is okay... v happening.. quene non stop... buy food training myself in carrying food... ahha.. coz, i went to ta bao for whole of GV bishan wif my buddy.. =).... and i somemore visa gold -.- haha... coz wence tabao before and he know 1 person hard to manage.. so... i went along... i am being kind here.. haha... then... the zhu cao make us wait v long.. then xiao xian seemed pissed... no.. she is pissed! haha.. then eat dinner at 9 plus.. hmm, then wen quan da ge create havoc.. but today, i didn't realli have time to chat wif him.. much less play wif him.. lai, me and peh just basically siao... haha... scare xian twice... lai hor.. not me.. =p... super funny... haha.. then home.... maple...

hmmm... ps to kris
jia let... missed u like crazy liao.... realli fate not wif us.. u go gv... i not there... and, i realli wanted to see u so much... maybe psyco my frens to watch at TM? haha... thanks for the chocolates... realli appreciate it... u are great! =) haha... and, i dun mind being bullied by u....

still reading rescue.. now is tearing part.. but partly coz of kristin chai min rui... she lah... say tt touching stuff on her blog...

"A dead hero is still dead"


"She'd wanted to hear those words at one time, but strangely they meant nothing now."
sometimes, i feel the same... sometimes, i wan to know.. but, when it was finally told.. realise the heart is dead...

-=:agu:=- sometimes, i wished to be understood... but the question is by who...

Saturday, August 13, 2005

maple once again

hi bloggie... so long no blog le.. haha.. even if i am online.. lazy lah... wat's more, only i read.. so dun need to blog so often right? *winks* haha.. jk.. is i lazy... even if no one read also will write...

thurs, 11 aug
hmm, had WISP... sleepy lah... haha... then after tt did some FYP before go home and sleep... hmm, then maple loh... haha.. and read book... nth much.. but maple till 5 am.. wif *lawrance and *james hahaha.... and lai, and li kheng and ah siao wailing.. haha... then sleep

fri, 12 aug
hmmm, pon napfa... to attend Hi! closing ceremony...notti me... wat to do... promise yiting and qiu yun.. take retest loh.. then no supper, coz ah keong no car so at home.. mapling.. haha... till near to 5 again... haha.. then went to sleep.. oh ya, know IAP (SIP) attachment place liao.. ahha... biopolis as expected... $420/mth.... hmmm, well, tt's the higher pay liao.. nth i can complain.. haha...

sat, 13 aug
happy birthday jie ying!!!!
hmmm, wake up see at xian de msg.. and ah siao de msg... ah siao say i go sleep early... -.-... thne xian say she bored... yesterday ask her go pool.. then she say dun wan... now late le say bored... ask her wan go out mah.. say dun wan also.... -.-.... fool me... hai.... haha.. but then again, i wake up an hour after her msg... haha.=p hungry... go find some grass le...

before i go... something i want to note
quoting from the rescue
"People come, people go - they'll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures. Then you'll find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past."

tt's true... but, its doesn't mean we forgot bout the old... whenever time allows, we will think of old frens... we will meet up... our closeness may not be physical, but in spiritual... ahha... nice right! nicholas sparks is excellent

-=:agu:=- Remembering old fav, Reading new

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

NDP 2005

hi bloggie... past 2 days were okay....

mon, 8 august..
haha. did not sleep the whole night.. was trying to understand proteomics... the paper was killing me... so chim.. too difficult le .. haha.. hmmm, then, pong BTN.. after school, went home sleep like no body's biz... then dinner time, got my da jiu and da jiu mu, xiao ping jiu mu, andy cousin bro... and my family of coz.. then dinner was nice ncie.. got meat balls... haha.. then after dinenr went to esplanade to see fireworks... hai.. kanna block by trees.. but still manage to see some.. haha.. then home and sleep again.. haha... pig *too tired le ok..*

tue, 9 august
Independence Day...
no school.. cool... went to NDP @ padang.. haha.. then find out jh too.. but nv see her...haha.. the NDP was great.. realli enjoyed myself... fireworks ppl... throw in more... haha... but i also like the parade, march in.. the MOBILES!!! they were great... haha.... then, this year the song, reach out for the skies is nice nice... ahha.. v inspiring.... then home, do proteo... chiong ah

wed, 10 august
y no school holiday? ahha... then meet up wif kelvin to do proteo... then came eric and gracia... IL-2 was okay... ahha.. but my sample like gone.. hai... then, proteo PBL 2 is wasted.. hai... off point.. but, at least, i understood one bloody chim paper.. even my tutor say v difficult.. then home.. aha...

today can rest... SUPPER ppl.. haha... poly frens wan supper.. make it soon.. then fri is Napfa... but qiuyun is cooing me not to go.. now undecided.. hmmm... lazy to host pic... got some new pic.. hai.. and think my sis deleted some.. hai.. my merlion pic! hai...

FRET (fluroscencse resonance energy transfer)

-=:agu:=-this may be the last time...

Monday, August 08, 2005

tt's y

hi bloggie.. hai.. in the end, the result is something i dun wan.. and tt's y i didn't say.... hai... wat can i do? wat can i say? feeling kind of sad... i dunno le. i feel miserable too. when i thot about telling u everything, i am just trying to tell u, wat i felt, wat other felt.. in the end, got such a result.. i blame myself..

u are always a good fren... work wise, i dun wan to comment le.. i done too much damage then good... i shld just leave it as it is....

regarding MIA, the reasons y we MIA is different. dun bother to explain. but priorities u set is different from mine.

anyway, my fren, i still cherish u... dun worry.. still frens..

-=:agu:=- me fault...

Sunday, August 07, 2005

pissed le...

hi bloggie... today, busy at work sia... temper rose, but, i too tired to say le... all i can is, this time rd, i am realli hurt...

today quene v long.. and non stop...
got trainee.. but nv realli train.. more time spent on clearing quene..

i dun wan to apologise, and i noe, that, for sure, u think u are right... but, was i wrong? i dun think so. hai... even li kheng agreed wif me.. even wai ling apologise to me, when she dun have to.. even ben have the intiative to help out. Y didn't u understand..

guess, just telling u dun tok to me, means attitude

then, i always get such attitude from u

hai
more hurt than can imagined

pluto move wrongly

-=:agu:=- just let her do it... *sniggers* (quoting from u)

Saturday, August 06, 2005

shld i?

hi bloggie.... after BTN, went for proteo lec and LSS lec... LSS is by our director Dr. Susila Chang... on IP... haha.. then got stats lec.. so sian... hai.. then went home to bathe and off to work... haha... then work CB closing wif auntie sew kee and waimum... siang till 12.. but she is more like at flr then at CB.. wat to do short handed... uncle rengen at box and francia too.. sze yin actually till 10 also extend... then xian at KC... peh... box till 10.. wen quan EOS teaching bryan... adida till 12.. cheow tee till 10.. then today a lil suay... open cheese tin kanna cut... hai... quite deep compared to normal... Jes is ah siao.. see i bleed so happy.. wan to spray the antiseptic on me... ahha... the antiseptic is not pain lah.. but stings alot... then i dun wan.. coz, in the first place not tt serious.. but i myself learn first aid. noe is better.. so... hai... bian tai! then home wif xian and auntie... xian was a good colleague help to do some CB closing.. appreciate it...

hmmm, laughs aside...

"Although i had been waiting for this for a long time, a part of me died when i eventually heard it. This small but significant part hurts more than not knowing."

quoting from a book.. which i can't rbr le.. but this line creates an impression in me.. how true... whenever we asked why, what, how, when, who.. have we thot of do we really need to know? So what if we knew.. will it helps to ease the pain of not knowing?

"You were never me, how do you know how it felt. You only think you know the pain but do you know pain? Thinking and feeling is not the same. You'll never know"

hai... sadly, most of the time, this is true...
BUT, this doesn't always happen... to someone, maybe his/her pain is always the worse... others will not understand how the person feel. but we will be surprised at how often ppl share the same feelings as us... i rbred few months ago, a certain someone said something similar to me... and i am admitting now, i had being reading then. i definitely did not regret my actions then. but i realli thot that the consequences were rather distasteful.

anyway... i can safely say, pain is not a stranger to me. and i never imagine pain, even if my brain cells were creative. i may not think of pain, but i do feel them after having a brief history with them. every now and then, i suffer from pangs of emotions, which is very weakening on the heart. so.. to that someone *dun think still reading le but just in case* this is my answer, i do know.

painful

-=:agu:=- Just that everyone eats burger, doesn't mean they want to see the cow *quoting from the island*

Friday, August 05, 2005

movie crazy

hi bloggie!!!! haha.. now in class... haha... in BTN lab... doing BTN term paper... and just recieved BTN term test result... and i failed! haha... and miserablely...wat to do... nv start studying... so nth i can complain.. and i expected this result... haha... so.. i am taking it in stride *crying the background??? haha.. jk* then proteo PBL haven finish.. only do some parts.. so a lil no time... hmm.. working tonight CB closing... hmmm, then see how.. go back Chiong paper... haha... i want to accomplish something bah....dunno...... but yesterday was great.. i realli had fun.. i watched 3 movie... The Island, Little Brother and Stealth.... nice nice... then waited for li kheng coz got cab home.. and realli enjoy spending time with her.. coz she is anime guru! not to mention manga and movie guru too! haha... all my soundtracks tt i have.. she can tell wat movie is it from... like me! haha.. cool!

The Island
bout the clones having a memories of their original self and started human nature... curiousity... running around in cool technology and saving other clones from facing death due to extraction of organs, giving birth to children... they are like insurance policies! so... imagine how sad life can be for a clone.. having knowledge of up till 15 years old... and being brain washed since young.. like told bout the most fortunate thing for them.. to go the island... v nice movie.. show insights of technology.. haha... and for me.. looking at such technology.. does keep my heart pumping.. have i falled in love with sci more than before? haha...

Little Brother
a movie that makes u laugh and cry at the same time... realli... i cried... and i laugh.. at the sensitivity and the ignorance of a young boy... his brother faced brain tumor at 12... and the strain on the parents as well as the lil brother realli impressed me... xian watched it twice and she still cried *according to peh* haha.. and ben is like eating popcorn till enjoyment *according to xian*.. i feel like me and siang keep eating.. haha.. haha.. my nachos is like super lots.... but, i realli feel for them...

Stealth
with high speed flying... nice air craft and smart AI! wat is there to not like? haha.. E.D.I flys superbly... with the flipping in the air... and the story is realli exciting... but in terms of plot.. it is paler compared to others.. haha....

hmm, also v funny... from only watching wif xian, i jio ppl watch..then become lil bro got peh, xian, siang and ben with me... i watched the island thou.. coz all working.. then stealth got lai, peh, and xian... thanks guys.. for accompanying me!!! haha... especially peh and xian!!! haha...

movies

-=:agu:=- thanks for everything.. thanks! =)

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

heaty

hi bloggie....oh man.. think i heaty... haha.... just had a minor nose bleed... either tt, or i broke a blood vessel... hmmm.... today... quite slacky.... hahaha... coz only went to discuss proj wif wei wei and jan... haha... cool... no IL 2 lab... coz, we were supposed to go to NTU de... but in the end... the place reject us.... haha.. wat to do.. we POLY student.. not UNI student.... sianzz.... then on the way home saw siyi... haha.... chit chat and catch up.... can't wait for tml... movie day.... realli looking forward to it.. and i accompany buddy watch stealth.. haha... no lah.. is she accompany me.... and lil bro... looking forward... and finally started reading sze yin's the rescue.... haha.. long delay... coz, got potter and anime... so... haha.. and also finally started on peh's initial D! haha... i am a happy person today... haa.....

oh ya... think is i heaty.... hmmm, and happen like a few months once... rbr when i am young.. age 4-6 years old... often got de... the worse was when i am playing at the void deck wif my childcare classmates... then when teacher gather us.. i started bleeding for no reason... and is alot.. my whole shirt is blood... scary loh.. my teacher xia dao... faster get me back to the centre... and ask me to lie down.... haha... then.. tt time... at GV also happen... bleeding quite bad... on ah bee shift! think mildred first few days also.. then i was doing closing... then suddenly see blood drip... faster go office rest.. haha...

oh ya, quoting from The Rescue
"The possible answers to those questions were painful to consider, and through sheer force of will she pushed them from her mind. But sometimes late at night the questions would come creeping back. Like kudzu spreading through the forests, they were impossible to keep at bay forever."

how true.... whenever we have a problem... that is nagging at us.. it will come back no matter wat... this line.. create an impression in me....

heaty

-=:agu:=- Never take more than you give

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

harrypotter

hi bloggie... hee hee... i am bored... so decide to flash some photos (finally) after not doing for quite so long... and moreover, my blog is getting bored without new pic to see doesn't it! haha....

haha... before the pic... FOR ALL HARRY POTTER FANS... meaning me... this is a must read

Read me! sure will like it... and in awe! haha...

ok pic.... presenting phone pics... aka... pic from my sony ericsson k700i! i adore this phone... anyone wan to buy me k750i? haha...

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ok... tt's me in my glasses (new pair mind u...)

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ultimate pig look! (siang)

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Best Buddy (xian)

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Stunned.. (peh)

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My Friend, the devil(peh)

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use my eyes to poke u (peh)

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Best Male Pal (lai)

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My disciple v busy (Andy)

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Gonna Get Killed for publishing this (Cheow Tee)

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Buddy tt look like monkey (Yan Jing)

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Newest "Boss" (Li Kheng)

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Headache ah.... (me...)

haha... realise i got some nice pic! haha... wait i collect more than i publish!!! haha... Peh... just for laughs... dun get offended orh....

ok, gonna screen somemore pic.... and this is not from my phone... office camera

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GV Family photo

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GV Family photo 2

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i liked this pic (me, my 2 best guy pals and my boss, *vanny*)
hey, dun u think it feels like national day.. everyone is either in red or white here!

haha... hmmmm, ok... after so long no post pic.. this shld be good to compensate... haha... nice nice hor!!!

agu

sick

hi bloggie.. today, i stayed at home... reason, not feeling well... oh man.. this is bad.....

hmm... thankfully, today is only 2 hour lec... for FYP, we did it yesterday.... so, since, today nth to do, i self declared MC... aka, pong school... but, hey, i am sick.... haha.... actually, is only having slight fever.... after a good rest, i will be up and running... so dun worry everyone! hmmm, let me see...

yesterday. mon, 1 aug, went to school to do FYP.. then went for BTN lec.. then after tt, went off for dinner wif jan and sok wif kahfa at Ding Tai Fung.... had a v full dinner... liked my fried rice and the Xiao Long Bao... haha.. then went to GV to slack.. do "catching" up wif everyone.. hahaa..... hmmm, then took auntie sewkee's cab back.... but, dunno y, by the time i get back... mucus starts to flow like crazy.... haha.. to think i was hyper in the earlier evening.... actually was a lil sick before tt... doing FYP, keep coughing... was it the actinomycetes? or the fungi? hmmm... then sleep, cannot sleep... coz mucus keep dripping... sneezing like crazy... manage to drift off at 4 am plus bah... then wake up at 8 plus, feeling terrible.. tt's y i decided to skip school.. after a good rest, i feel better.... so, think going to do some research... haha... anyway, think its a fatigue i was feeling rather than flu... hmmm...

oh well, was notti to skip school anyway... =p

sick....

-=:agu:=- water and bed....