Wednesday, December 29, 2004

tsunami

hi bloggie.. ok.. first thing first.. i am okay le.. thrown a tantrum and coz a hoo ha.. sorry ppl.. expecially to lai.. needed an outlet... and u were a victim.. for that i apologise... Xian and ting.. thanks for listening to my childish woes... i reckon that day's feeling is coz of the stress built up.. haha.. its was on monday.. 1 day b4 tues.. haha.. ok.. lame i noe.. hmm tue is cucom.. then need to prepare slides and script.. as gracia was away.. our discussion was put to a halt.. but we manage to finish.. so.. tt day stress was at ultimate high level.. then more stress becum almost nervous breakdown.. so resulted to anguish me.. but i am fine le.. thanks for all ur concern..

well.. tue was a brisk.. after UFS had cucom.. UFS having first test nx week.. hai.. even if i am good in accounting. i sucks at theory so i am PRAYING hard not so much theory qn.. haha.. the actual doing is easy.. i juz not used to the format.. CUCOM.. we watched a film in chinese.. called King Of Mask.. interesting Film.. v inspiring.. and i am glad i took CUCOM.. haha.. who gets to watch movies during lesson.. haha.. ok maybe the mass com ppl.. but its damn cool and provoke lots of thots.. after that.. went to PS to check out phones b4 heading home.. haha.. then went out wif mama again to PS to get my phone.. yes! haha.. i got my phone.. its panasonic X500.. slide phone.. hmm.. then saw Bee Yann wif her beau.. haha.. then she also buy phone .. then went for dinner.. waited till nearly 10 then got serve.. haha.. then went home.. too tired out.. charge phone then orh...

wed (29 dec)
TODAY! haha.. had INST prac.. do drawings.. haha.. then manage to finish within 3 hrs.. then went for lunch b4 going for Zamen's lec.. haha.. then her lec is still as witty.. then went for Staff Student day.. sit wif ting.. haha.. then the performance is bout 3 hrs long! crazy rite. then some good performance and some needs some serious improvement.. Realli liek the Hi! performance.. a pity due to work commitments, i couldn't attend the rehereasal.. if not i also performing.. haha.. then i also like the witty performance by the staff.. Luv Dr. Zamen's cat walk and witty response by all the "contestants" of staff belle and beau contest! haha.., then went to novena square after tt.. haha.. wanted to get my LG phone.. then.. no stock.. not destined to haf it.. then nvm loh.. had dinner then went home.. do lab reports.. haha.. realise only need to do 2.. coz got 1 dun haf results! haha.. yipee.. even haf time to blog now..

hmm.. reckon now the whole world is moaning.. hmm.. its the tragic accident of the tsunami that shocked the world wif death rates climbling.. wreaking hearts of luv ones and the sympathetic ones.. calls were made to ensure the safety of the missin ones.. locals hurried calling ppl overseas to check if they were affected... the departure halls of affected area is packed.. while the arrival hall is desserted.. its one of the biggest calamity the world have witness.. another tragic incident since the incident where a school was taken hostage... maybe, mother nature is giving us signals that we need to treasure what we have, what we own and who we have.. some places is being a flat land again.. and.. god's forbid if the tsunami were to happen in our red dot.. the whole nation will be wiped out.. we were v fortunate that mother nature want our little country to survive while our bigger neighbours bear the consequence.. i am v lucky to be seated infront of COM and blogging and breathing.. hmm.. well thots that fill my mind.. and fears that make me shiver

ok.. think better start to log off and head for bed..

-=:agu:=- @}--/-- for the families that were affected by this tragic accident

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

farked up

NOW EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT... Y DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS.. NO.. I DID NOTHING.. I SHLD HAF KEPT MY PHONE ON.. I SHLD HAVE NOTICE MY PHONE IS OFF.. I SHLD HAD JUZ HEAD DOWN EVEN IF THERE IS NONE OF MY BIZ... I SHLD HAVE DONE THINGS THAT PEOPLE EXPECT ME TO DO.. BUT I CAN'T READ MINDS.. I HAVE DEADLINES TO MEET AND I HAVE OTHER COMMIMENTS... AND I HAVE FREAKING 2 PHONES.. 1 PHONE IS DEAD.. CAN TRY THE OTHER... WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM... I HAD TO ATTEND TO YOU WHILE DOING MY PROJECT.. I ONLY HAVE ONE ME... NOW I HAVE TO BEAR THIS BURDEN.. GREAT... FANTASTIC... JUST ONE SINNER WILL DO... AND PUSH IT TO ME... EXCELLENT.. AND U STILL FREAKING DUN ADMIT U WERE PISSED... IF U ARE NOT.. U WOULD HAF SAID THINGS NICELY... IF U AR NOT.. U WOULD HAVE LET ME FINISHED WAT I WAN TO SAY.... AND YES.. I AM PISSED WIF U... I DUN FREAKING CARE....U NOE WHO U ARE... I DUN WAN TO SPELL IT OUT FOR OLD TIME SAKE.. BUT JUST TO LET YOU NOE.. I AM FREAKING ANGRY BOUT THIS....

-=:AGU:=-

Monday, December 27, 2004

a bumper year

hi bloggie.. haha.. going to be end of the year le.. nice huh.. haha. so many things happen this year.. haha.. had a scary sem.. wif modules like Immunology and AMB.. haha.. being another year.. so far things seem to be smooth.. a remarking year.. saw the likes of Pixar Animation that broke box offices (made ticket sales personnel v tired talking wif over demand of the movie..) and the recent KungFu hustle coz a big HOO HA in S'pore and everywhere else in the world (another box office hit.. may even beat Nemo) hmmm... realli an intentional star, stephen Chow.. haha.. everywhere where chinese is found will haf his movie.. no wonder a success.. celebrated my first Chinese New Year and New Year At gv from the start of the year.. and being at this small cinema for 1 year and 8 months now.. haha.. started 3 sem this year.. haha.. wow! and may haf a post xmas present from mama.. haha.. she agreed to upgrade my handset.. but it all depends.. haha.. then school is okay.. bz as always.. and staff student day is this week... hmm...

so far.. i haf being okay.. watched kungfu hustle on boxing day wif lai and xian.. lai laughter is unforgetable.. haha.. played pool wif xian.. osrry ah.. u broke le still ask u out for pool... saw yimei also.. while waiting for xian.. so qiao.. haha.. then today i v naughty... overslept.. so means miss my lec. liek wat xian say.. heng is lec.. ahha.. if prac.. i sure leap out of bed and dash for the door.. haha.. prac was okay. i got a cut and i haf to work wif xiao wei! hai.. gracia my lab partner did not cum due to holiday... do wif her loh.. but think she need to be flexible in thinking.., hai.. can do things more easy dun wan.. do so hard.. dunnoe for wat.. haha.. okay. lah.. i think i better continue my project... juz drop by a short blog.. maybe i will blog more tml! haha.. tata..

-=:agu:=- TeaRs MaY FaLL, EmotioNs MaY OverfloW, BuT the Mind Will RegaiN ControL EvenTuallY....

Saturday, December 25, 2004

merry christmas

a quick entry before i head to work.. Believe! haha.. that's the word that flashes my mind.. not coz, of Polar express the movie.. but something i always value.. believe! haha.. well.. my last entry was a little sad.. moody.. depressed.. empty.. but.. like i said.. hope the christmas spirits can lift me up.. and it did.. i believe! haha.. and i believe in a lot more things... i am better le... and merry christmas making to all... and i believe that everyone will find their happiness in a way or another this xmas! haha.. Opps! shld be HoHoHo.. haha.. will ppl.. to believe, u muz gif urself the chance to.. so gif chances to watever that comes ur way... maybe then u will find out something new! haha.. okay.. crapping le.. and getting late.. merry christmas all!!!!

-=:agu:=- Merry Christmas!

Friday, December 24, 2004

i am naruto

naruto

xmas is coming

hi bloggie.. haha... long time no blog.. week 3 also bz.. hai y like that.. stupid school system.. xmas during school period, broke and no mood.. hai.. work and school.. feel like no life.. envy my fellow classmates who seem to have time for other activities.. hai.. i long time no online le.. online coz of research.. i miss my old life.. i miss testprint late in the nite.. i gonna miss more things and ppl.. its official.. gv management going to have rotation.. i will miss Bee, Kris, Mildred... leaving gv bishan.. sad.. bee is the fun she bring to us.. Kris... she treat me v well and v honoured to be her FOC PA! mildred.. v sweet gal who is always bullied by me.. haha.. i will miss them.. all good things have to come to an end.. but every ending is a new beginning.. we may not be boss- staff relationship anymore.. but hopefully, u guys accept me as a friend! haha.. ask me out for a meal or movie.. i will be make myself available.. hai.. dunno whether i still wan to work or not.. i v stressed out in school... PAY sad to say sucks.. if not for the comfort zone i haf there.. i may haf left.. if not for my friends, pals and buddy there.. i may seriously haf left.. i v tired out.. i long time no watch movie... i need to do some reflections.. i seriously am not okay... i feel so empty.. maybe.. maybe i should realli take a break.. but once the hand stop.. so would the mouth.. i dunno wat cause such deep emotions and thinking in me.. maybe coz... now mentality different le.. maybe.. school is driving me nuts.. maybe.. a lot of maybe.. i feel i haf drifted away wif relationships with friends.. i dunno y.. i feel that there is no one there yet.. to realli predict wat i think... maybe, its not that easy to find a soulmate..

haha.. long time no blog.. thots keep flooding the mind.. tears clouding vision.. okay okay.. life goes on doesn't it? well past few days quite okay... school is getting into places and projects and deadlines settling in.. made decisions that will affect my life nx year.. have lots of entry in my wish list and heart is v heavy... too much things in my mind to clear.. xmas is tml.. xmas eve today.. working.. hopefully, lata, all thots will clear.. some times is own selves think too much..

but, i also haf some good times during the week...
the xmas feast wif my sec school gang is great.. NYDC! haha.. we wen on mon.. i blow 30 bucks away in exchange for fun, good food and v satisfied stomach! haha..

okay.. shall end here..

-=:agu:=- CaN LiFe Be EvEn MeaSurEd!?

Sunday, December 19, 2004

week 2 ended...

hi bloggie.. loads of sorry, know i had not been good and not updating.. but the year 2 sem 2 is not as slack as i thot.. BOO! which idiot told me that sem 2 will be less stress de.. Y i dun feel it at all.. and juz pass freaking 2nd week only.. BOO!....

14 dec, tue
hmm.. had IS today.. haha.. the UFS(acc.) was okay lah.. a little v simple.. haha..and the teacher go v slow.. i almost fall asleep.. but CUCOM i fall asleep.. haha.. today was basically simple and easy.. then went for lunch wif ting, jia hui and simei then went off to work.. work was okay i guess.. being v tired out and stress!? haha.. was working wif hao en.. and i still feel like killing him.. haha... trained gracina box closing.. then wait for andy then go home in cab. hahaha...

15 dec, wed
had INST prac in the morning.. was okay.. we actually completed within the 3 hr frame wif our lab reports handed up *beams*.. haha.. yeah.. we manage to complete it.. then headed for lunch b4 Dr. Zamen ABS's lec.. b4 that, she told us bout OIAP(Overseas Industrial Attachment Programme).. we can apply and see if we get the opportunity to get in.. haha.. i alittle bit think too much... my results are mainly Cs and yet i wan to apply... hai.. and need the $$ to go.. if i get in.. i dunnoe where to find the $$ also.. hai.. dreams and reality can't mix.. anyway.. had an interesting lec then went off to work... CB closing today wif charanjit and Andy... did quite wols then went home and finish up lab report... =x

16 dec, thurs
AHH!!! woke up late.. but morning prac was okay.. reached there 15 mins late.. lucky for me the quiz was placed at the end of the prac.. haha. then we finished prac within 1 and the 1/2 hr. so got another 1 and the 1/2 break.. went for brunch then go for CCTA prac... a little more things to learn.. not bad.. quite informative.. but got 2 lab report to do again... then went off to bugis... for shopping..

17 dec, fri
had tutorial and then had 4 lec.. fall asleep in some. then today had year 3 project briefing plus IAP(local).. stress... feel so stress... haha.. then went to work.. a little late.. haha.. then working cb closing.. okay lah..

18 dec, sat
went off in the morning to TP(temasek Poly) to look for xian.. saw dora, jin hui, yan jing, derrick, siang hoe and nicholas.. haha.. but me a little attitude and quiet today.. sorry ah.. nothing to say today.. v tired out.. then meet up wif lai.. went to TM to walked ard and shopping.. then head down for work.. worked box late mid wif jac and lai closing.. xian becum kacang.. then helped ard to do cb closing.. which is super super fast.. i alittle v edgy.. haha. then have xmas party.. haha.. had fun.. especially saboing of manger.. haha.. got tongs for all of them, and wense got stress ball(in a shapes of boobs) haha... they all kanna popcorn, ice, and flour(mildred case) which in turn, i also kanna.. haha.. too bad.. the flour is supplied by them.. haha... had lots of fun and cleaning up.. then went home at ard 5 plus...

19 dec, sun
suppose to haf pri school gathering.. but all not free.. then nx time bah.. slept a lot..

this is my week 2 life.. sad huh.. so bz.. nx week hopefully not so.. v tired out

-=:agu:=- Life FiLLed wiTh UpS aNd DoWns aRe MoRe cOmpLeTe....

Monday, December 13, 2004

week 2 only!

ello bloggie.. tired out.. haha.. frankly, its not easy to hold a job and study.. so if u have the money... try letting ur parents support u a while more.. it is a great feeling... school's 2nd week for me.. some 1st week others last week of holiday.. well.. 加油 everyone!

11 dec, sat
after blogging, surf net till time past and work! haha.. bz bz bz.. working at candy bar again.. Gracina my trainee again.. pity her have to train under me.. dunno wat to teach.. did not teach her much today.. more of throw her a counter and i bz with other things.. no choice short handed.. hai.. then after work, wait for peh and kris with xian.. Jack Jack(jac) wait with us.. hee hee.. good huh.. chat and tease.. wait until 4 plus, peh finished his job then went home..

12 dec, sun
wah.. tired!!! wake up at 8.45 in the morning.. i reached home at 5! haha.. thanks jac! sms me.. watch alexander with xian and rene.. a v long winded movie.. not to my liking.. haha.. not much war scene.. i expected it to be better.. 6.50 or even lower.. haha.. if u wan to see guys kissing, Colin Farrel in short "skirts", Angelina Jolie being a "hot" mum.. then go for this 3 hr 15 mins movie! aghast! thankfully, LOTR was much better! haha.. then went to walked ard b4 heading to J8.. then loiter some more b4 going home.. watched star awards last part then prepare for nx day school.. haha.. had a mini quiz.. memorise 20 amino acids!

13 dec, mon
slept at 12 plus.. tired! thanks Emi.. wake me up.. then went to school.. sleepy and tired.. had 2 BORING TILL CANNOT TAHAN de lecture.. and then had lunch at alumni.. the steak was only not bad.. nice ambience thou.. haha.. then had prac.. the quiz, got 17 out of 20.. damn.. 1 i spelled wrong.. 1 i rbr wrongly... then prac was okay.. then now blogging.. haha...

wah this week is going to be so packed! haha.. working on tue and wed.. and meeting see hui for lunch, thurs is already occupied.. fri reckon shld be working.. sat have xmas party.. sun most probably have BBQ and i have 2 lab report haven done.. more mini quizes coming up! Damn.. its only freaking 2week of school.. boo hoo.. i wan my december holiday!

-=:agu:=-Man Will Rise aNd Fall.. RiSe aNd FaLL....

Saturday, December 11, 2004

school's back...

hi bloggie.. i noe i noe.. long time did not update.. actually, first week of school only.. should have lots of time.. haha.. i lazy mah.. then play CPU games.. hee hee...

7 dec, tue
2nd day of school.. had IS(CDS) lesson at 8 in the morning. first up was Understanding Financial Statements... this module is like accountings.. we are to analyse the business using financial statements like Trading report and Balance sheet.. hmm.. i like accounting.. but i realli forgot some of it... been a long time since i came in touch with accounts... after 2 hours, i had Intercultural Communication.. cool rite.. we can learn about other people's culture and the world view.. haha.. that is what my lecturer said.. seem quite interesting.. tis sem, i can choose one from Business and One from Communication.. which means i can take jap.. but haha.. i not good with language.. and jap.. frankly is not a sub easy to learn.. so i took something that is taught in english! haha.. my class is either jap or intercultural.. so funny!.. then after school, ting went with me for lunch and i finally bought my SIMS 2!!! haha.. so happy... played at home...

8 dec, wed
Prac at 8am.. haha.. sad huh.. another 8am class.. third day of school.. hmm.. had instrumentation lab... the prac tutor (Mr. Chang) hmm, lets juz say.. needs to improve his teaching.. drag our time... explaining to us.. its good if we are year 1.. hai.. he got a reputation of making a 3 hr lab(our allocated time) to 4 hr lab(means break gone!)... and today.. we actually can finish out prac on time and even hand up assignment rite on time.. but thanks to the stupid TSO(technical support officer aka lab technician) ERIC TAN... he prepare the wrong solution.. made us waste half an hour coz we alreadi done our dilution and he doesn't seem sorry at all.. FYI, i do respect TSO alot.. i had some v good ones.. and he is the worse.. i had Nara, weiling(having her again), and some others i dunno their name. but they are good! arrgh! the worse thing is the tutor can actually say we are SLOW!!.. its coz of the TSO error, we wasted time.. and no thanks to his own long briefing.. we actually can do pretty fast and manage to finish the prac within 45 mins... although shorter break.. hai.. then the TSO eric take his own sweet time when we need him to help us magnify a result slip.. got too pissed that we do it ourselves.. SHIT HIM! and did i mention this topic is physic! I haf not touched physic since sec 2's general sci.. i admit.. i not v good at them either.. not that i am good in bio or chem.. but physic seem so so dead... haha.. xian say she luv physic.. 变态! how can one luv physic.. =x.. jk... then went for lunch.. i had prawn mee and finish within 10 mins( those who knows me, know noodles is my nemesis.. haha.. i mean i can't eat them fast enough.. so 10 mins is amazing!) then went to have lecture.. ABC (analytical biochemistry).. i like the lecturer.. Dr. Zamen.. cool lecturer that speaks in a v witty tone.. hahaha.. had a nice lecture but haf to memorise 20 amino acids for the nx prac quiz... after lect went down to J8.. waited for xian while having a chat with bee and mildred.. haha.. v fun.. then watched Briget Jones Diary 2.. see.. during school days more free lah.. =x the movie was okay... funny.. 7.50 to 8.50 range.. then after that had dinner and went home.. played my sims 2!!

9 dec, thurs
4th day of school and 4th 8 oclock class.. had ACMB( advanced cell and molecular biology).. like the prac tutor(Dr. Ghandi) but the lecturer for the lecture(the young lecturer that CMI) i can't rbr his name.. hahaha... had weiling as TSO.. good huh.. she helped us in year 1.. anyway.. today prac was cool.. nice and fun... the tutor was witty and v helpful.. then went for my nx prac straight after this.. CCTA(cell culture and tissue application).. yeah.. after last sem of immunology i actually was looking forward to this.. its the closest things i can learn about the stem cells research.. b4 that.. i muz learn this.. cool huh.. reckon all the male tutor for prac(i only haf 2) like draggy briefing... (Mr. Joseph Kueh also my mentor aka advisor) he give long briefing.. v detailed, we managed to finish the prac on time.. but got lab report to do.. then after prac went back to ACMB lab to get results and need to do assignment... after that.. stayed in school for a while to do INST(instrumentation) lab report.. first week of school need to do so many lab report.. sad huh.. reckon every else dun haf tt much hmwrk.. okay.. maybe peh and lai haf their projects already.. but i haf it too.. went home lata and online and sims... hee hee...

10th dec, fri
finally.. weekend approaches and 11 am school! yes!!! haha.. did no haf tutorial coz is an odd week.. (i haf tutorial every once in 2 weeks).. then haf lecture for 4 hrs.. but 4 different modules..(means need to take different notes0 and my bag so heavy.. INST so heavy the notes.. and the lecturer(Mr. Chang) doesn't make it that interesting.. Oh god! haha.. then had CCTA (Mr. Joseph Kueh) lecture.. the lecture was okay.. then last 20 mins watch video.. a little gross.. haha.. no details to divulge.. then break and had ACMB(CMI young lecturer) lec.. wah. this one the best.. new dunnoe how to open the lecture door and dunnoe how to operate the lights.. in turn dark lecture theatre and the lecture go on.. and the worse thing is NO NOTES! what am i going to study.... i not that hardworking.. but i can't even start without notes.. hai.. then after 1 hr of gruesome lecture.. had Dr. Zamen lecture of ABC.. v Fun... liked her teaching.. then finished lec means school ends.. head down to J8 and worked today.. haha.. have to train Gracina the coolest of the new lots.. hmm.. then work todya was fun.. Cheow Tee and me can already coz Chaos... and xian in hyper mood(not to mention her deeds the dya b4!) haha.. and Kris is super hyper (horny as welll!!!) haha.. had fun.. and then wait for kris then head home.. hee hee..

okay.. today so far wake up lunch and blogging.. will update more!!
GV xmas party is confirm on sat..and jia you everyone..

-=:agu:=- A roaring Lion Kills no Game...

Monday, December 06, 2004

reopening of school

school's back! haha.. today was aokay.. got a prac.. the prac was okay.. had 2 lectures.. one is old old de lecturer.. one is young de first time teaching de... fear for my exam! haha.. then today wake up late.. take cab down.. big hole in the pocket.. bought 2 set of notes only... 16.60! haha.. then... today my new shoes got stain.. shit the chair.. went home clean them.. then went to aunt hse for dinner.., today... its overall ok.. see poly frens and hopefully this sem is better... tml better.. can see ting for IS.. haha...

4 dec, sat
today wen to queensway to buy my shoes.. found it.. ADIDAS.. ahha... bought it for 66 after discount.. originally 89.. thanks xian for accompanying me today.. worked wif siang... v relax.. ahha.. then today quite ordinary.. haha...

5 dec,sun
went to watch the incredibles at PS.. finally.. haha.. NICE.. 8.50 movie.. the effects are good.. the storyline is witty.. v nice.. haha.. so funny....the movie is damn good.. luv the lines and EDNA!! haah.. and jack jack is so goddamn cute!! haha.. then went to mache to haf dinner.. and went to walked ard and pic galore! haha.. had picture taken. then went home...

-=:agu:=- the train ride maybe rough.. but i am glad i took this train wif u as my companion...

Saturday, December 04, 2004

bz again!

hi bloggie.. sorry for not updating again.. reckon this will happen from the start of the holidays.. haha.. being bz at work.. hmm... some events (that are worth to be written down as history like Singapore Idol)

wed, 1 dec
every one in singapore will tok bout this, singapore idol.. long since i watched, being at worked and was the exam period when i stopped watching.. anyway... give my 2 cent worth.. taufik the declared Idol, did well, sly sylvester, did paler in terms of performance. luv the grp finalist singing of "that's what friends are for" a oldies that will create sensation once again in s'pore, and will definitely join the ranks of songs like "seasons in the sun", "graduation", "朋友".... haha... new song to hear when u graduate! anyway, inpressive performance by Dick Lee as well.. hmm, lets juz hope that the declared idol can have his fans swooned and buy his CD when it is out and will gather fans hopefully from America Billboard... if not, Asian market too small to feed...
anyway, was working mid shift today.. tired, v tired.. went home online, tv and sms... then sleep

thurs, 2 dec
cb closing wif shoba and ting... hmm, one happy family? pity god sis, aka buddy work mid shift.. went home and snooze like a pig.. hahaha.. nth interesting today...

fri, 3 dec
badminton in the morning.. eunice and her frens intend to join us(xian, rene) but, changed of plans and we were left on our own.. after a game, went to yishun for lunch and a movie of SAW at yishun 10(aka, gv yishun).... the movie, was unexpected(nv expect i watch it either).. twist was okay, and so was the script.. hmm... 6.50 to 7.50 worth? after movie went back to bishan, rdy for work.. b4 work see kris wif 2 police officer and a patron.. lata find out the patron is some rich guy that takes pic in our premises and refuse to co-operate wif us.. and insulted our CE.. DARN HIM!!1 haha... then work was okay.. a little boring.. nth to do like tt.. then now at home.. going to sleep soon.. going out wif xian lata.... she v good, accompany me!!! =)


school's starting soon.. darn! hmm... excited, sad, happy.. mixed up feelings.. for me, i am happy and excited coz can start new sem, school's back and means lesser work.. so in term, less tired... also can see poly pals, happy.. hmm sad, last holidy for me, nx vacation is taken up by IAP(industrial attachment programme), and the final one is project doing.. so no more vacation.. hai.. dun really noe wat to feel.. first time school in december.. alreadi haf xmas party line up, gatherings made and definitely trying to get rdy thread to sew back the hole in my pocket... no mood for school! definitely.. for me, although not a Christian, but Christmas is an impt festive for me... my sis is born on xmas eve, invite from my pastor aunt.. the usual xmas feeling!... haha.. cum to think abt it, i am actually v into western culture.. i noe lots of xmas song(cna try to test me...) .. hmm.. so v hard to realli decide wat to feel for xmas.. for deyi gang, the feast idea is great! will choose cartel then NYDC.. breeks a little disappointment for me... so i cast my vote!
hit the sack.. tired le.. nite guys.. luv every single one of u!

-=:agu:=- For The GOOD Times, For The BAD Times....

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

school coming back

hi bloggie...(braced urself for a long entry) being working the past few days again.. tired and fall sick, but recovered, although not full recovery, still feeling the effect of the flu bug... cozing irritating sore throat to me now.. hai.. tried lozenges and cough mixture, haven seem to recover yet.. then school is going to start soon.. haha.. feel weird, december school, this is INHUMANE!!! haha.. i mean, where is the family bonding that the government wan if they put education above it! reckon education still more important then. oh well, its about ur well roundedness tt's y! and its not me to contridict the government decision. anyway, the past few days working was fine, had trainee and reckon i was too fierce to one.. too bad, she toed the wrong side of my line! haha... but overall, we are still observing the situation... how many will stay!? my guess is 5!!! haha..

going out lata with lai, peh, xian and joel.. haha.. i changed my shift, pretty last min arrangement.. haha.. at least managed to changed it! haha..

hmm, alot of things flashes my mind, since the 4E7 gathering... hmm, friends, classmates, colleagues, i have met alot of ppl in different places and realli appreciate their presences (okay, confession, some of them).... this entry is dedicated to u guys, a v big thank u for being there and watched me grow, at my different stages!!!!

first my family
i am considered old fashioned in thinking, this haf to thank my upbringing, i accept new ideas, but keep old values.. haha.. anyway, i am realli thankful for my parents, especially my mum, they fed me, clothed me, watched me grow, tutored me, and gif me financial support, they made arrangement for me when my feeble mind is still in dreamyland, and respect my decision, when i was able to gain some independence and reponsibilities. haha.. then, my 2 imp sisters, (okay, one cannot called imp, big liao!!!) bring laughter to me, irritating at times but absence do make the heart fonder, since i started working, i rarely see my family, coz, i am either at work or at school, i know i shld not neglect my family,however, our timing is v different.. but i still cherish them...

next, friends that grows with me,

Jinny, my pri school friend, who made contact with me thru friendster after so long.. i was the antisocial one.. i was in the top class all along, until in primary 6, my world was a little upside down... due to changed of school system, i was transfered to the 2nd class... sad at that time,(can see from young v 好胜)... then adapted and life goes on... anyway, get to know other ppl in my new class and slowly adpated to the truth...after PSLE, i lose contact! with everyone... dun ask me y, i juz dunno... then friendster spring up and voila! found back old friends one by one... hahahahahaha... jinny was one of them.. then, she organise that dinner and i met up with suling, desmond and zhiyong.. and she is also organising a BBQ.. hopefully can see more friends!!!... haha.. she is also v brilliant, friendly and v the gal nx door... lucky to have met her, and she found me back!! thanks for finding me back.. too bad for ya, i reckon i will stay....

cyndy, sec school pal
cyndy 大姐... v caring person, who thinks for everyone and care for them... realli thankful for her presence, rbr the time we did E.Math revision.. thanks to her, my E.Math at o level did not suffer... constant revision and doing!!! hahaha.. my class chairperson for sec 1 and 2, proved she is tt good to be re-elected!!! she is straightforward, sometimes with a fiery temper... but nonetheless, she do not throw her temper if u dun offend her... so far, i can't rbr recieving any tongue lashing, hee hee, maybe i been good!! hahaha. hahaha.. v independent gal! and always cherish her... thanks for being there!!! so stay there....

Shunting, sec school pal
婷妹, one who have to endure my grumbling and complains, and grumbling and complains... good organising power, pulled together several chalets due to her, and v good to friends, loyal! she also funny, have good humor.... so means i suan her, she also no objections! v independent gal, working at the same location at me!!! at least during the holidays.. haha.. school days also not that bad.. can see her, especially this sem, have the same IS(CDS) modules... accompanied me to learn sign language and keep me accompanied when i need one.. v lucky to have meet her!!! stay cheerful u got that!?

Peileng, sec school pal
this one ah.. she is the one tt pours to me and i gif her advice(dunno work or not) but she is v mature in thinking... strive hard for good results.. rbr during chinese lesson in sec 2, i seating behind her.. my chinese not good, so often get called by teacher.. then her chinese good mah.. so nv kanna.. once teacher say i shld write notes.. then he took PL's textbook.. say PL got write notes... but teacher blind ah.. closer look can see all she write was "beckham"... haha.. dunno to laugh or wat... hahah.. gal, thanks for being my fren.. to me, its alreadi a wonderful thing liao

Lai, sec school pal
来嫂! haha.. this guy is the funny guy, who cracks me up.. rbr the times he made me cry.. coz, i tt time how to say.. sensitive? haha.. okay, no sense of humor.. tease me only i cry... now betta hor.. u tease me.. i tease u back.. hahaha.. intro me to GV and he ah.. v style now.. he can get mood swings like woman but he is still a man!!! (i think)... haha.. v good friend, becoz always in cahoot with him to misbehave! haha.. when we dun like someone, i pity tt person.. can critise till no value at all.. v sporty person and have a hubby (still hopes he is a guy!) but anyhow, he still good pal to me, can be 姐妹 or 好友...

jieying, sec school pal
this one ah... the person who comes up with AGU.. now.. my name is not called christina anymore.. hai.. pity my parents, gif me nice name, become like tt.. she ah.. dunno wat to say.. cranky and naive... sometimes feeling like strangling her neck for embarassing u... but nonetheless, create laughter.. rbr the chalet then have cat fight.. she ah.. wan to fight against me.. if i wan, i will throw her off.. but scare hurt her.. hahahahhah... she is the sleeping beauty in her class.. and one wif the brains.. get so good results, even qualify for JC.. then chose poly.. hahaha.. hey u... betta act our age.. dun be so blur.. but luv u watever u are!!!

jason peh, sec school pal
PEH PEH!!! haha... funny guy.. funny coz his jokes so cold, we often laugh at only one... out of 10? hahah.. he ah.. v good guy.. SNAG(sensitive new age guy), think of other ppl feeling.. liek dinosaur like tt... extinct liao.. suan ppl, then say sorry.. v good hor.. in class wif him for 4 years.. his bad luck bah.. then v gentleman de... he also v 痴情.. hee hee.. v good pal.. need him hor, u call him, he will help u de... thanks pal!!!! for juz being there and helping me out... and thanks for ur cold jokes, v entertaining.. hahha...

yenny, sec school pal
wah... this one.. used to sit beside me in class... she v good in suaning.. now suan less le.. but still hope her power still there.. v smart gal.. hardworking too.. and her art skills are wow!!!! haha... our class noticeboard all done up by her.. all 4 years..then rbr the time was school funfair.. wah.. the deco is WOW!!! haha.. peh and i was one of the sculptors.. we have to learn to twist the balloon.. haha.. v fun that time.. except for KWOK... haha.. her mum cooking is like wow!!! luv ya mom's cooking.. CNY muz go her hse de.. hahahahaha.. thanks... being the status friends mean more to me than anything

peggy, sec school pal
the one who likes to call my FULL NAME, Christina Wong Ruiyan(王瑞燕) v bubbly gal.. her laughter v cute de.. she laugh, u will laugh de..then she hor, exam period still go chalet.. hai.. hope she do well... and she still can say she study wrong notes!!! omg.. but she determined, in the CCA of BAND... (deyi band rulez) v tough CCA.. she endured and this made her v determined.. hahaha.. good sia.. thanks ah.. dun mind i be ur fren...

see hui, sec school pal
this one is my online buddy.. always chat wif me online and we have the same mindset.. hahaa.. v inspiring to chat with her.. and we often tok abt a wide range of topics.. hahaa.. good fren and v understanding.. hardowrking tooo... ahaha.. rbr last time help her in her POA!!! haha... thanks for being my fren.. cherish u always...

for poly peeps,
the i only know u for this long.. but i luv the times we played and pigged it out.. till time goes on.. i will collect more memories and then i can come up wif wat i wrote bout my other friends

rene, gv colleague..
this ah ma.. v good in advice.. v wise in age and sometimes v violent... kanna beaten by her.. but if u need someone to tok to.. find her the best... always play pool and badminton wif her.. and not to forget the movies we watched.. hahaha.. and the MPH book sales.. wahhhhahahahaha... buy so much books sia.. and LOTR!!! ahhaa... thanks ahma...

kristin, gv boss
this one ah... bosses my ard and make me her no pay PA... poor me.. but v good fren.. seen my tears and my laughter and v good to me... always send me home.. v good.. i dun mind FOC for ya orh...

jingxian, gv bud
this one.. my acclaimed buddy.. cannot run liao... v good.. always haf to suffer my temper and beating.. and v nice to me.. hahaha.. good hor..seen the inner side of me more.. haha.. intro naruto to me and i need company, she will be there.. worked wif her even better.. she will do the job. so i can slack.. and v patient person.. steady as she is.. so v consistent.. see she got top customer service crew.... haha.. MACHE!!! hahaha.. accompany me to movies and pools and badminton.. even haf the honour to meet her poly friends.. my soulmate.. so if need to know my secrets can torture her.. thanks xian.. for being my buddy and i promise i shall not beat u le.. and thanks for acknowledging my buddy status... u are the best!!!!

wah.. write so long... thanks for all tt haf being in my life..
if ur name is not mentioned here.. dun be sad... u are still v impt to me.. like JX's fren... i still dunno u guys well.. but u guys are terrific.. realli v good... and v honoured to haf meet u...

thanks all... being a pleasure meeting u guys...
-=:agu:=- LovEd OnE ReMain In A Place In My HeaRt and ReMaiNS imPt To me....

Friday, November 26, 2004

4/7 gathering

hi bloggie, sorry not being updating again.. haha.. shall update

mon, 22 nov
OFF.. so at home.. then did nth i guess, wake up late anyway, half of the day gone.. then mapling...

tue, 23 nov
work.. hmm.. ok.. was working at cb, cb closing wif N.U.R and vasuki.. haha.. expected to do alot.. but ok lah.. box closing is peh, ting flr late mid... after work went o coffee bean and drink coffee, tea in my case, ting drink pure choco. then had some laff.. peh powered up in lame joking.. made us freeze.. haha.. v fun.. laff all my worries away.. went back up to GV to change poster, then take cab home.. wana maple de.. but server down.. chat wif xian instead.....

wed, 24 nov
tired... haf to wake up early go to TIONG BAHRU to take popcorn box, ting, at marina.. she take cab down to fetch me.. reach J8 le, dun dare call office to get someone help us, they are shorthanded, and think no one can help us carry.. might as well do it ourselves.. ting carry 2 boxes, i do 3... hai.. then so heavy, cargo life in use, so take normal lift.. at least a kind lady help us.. v nice.. then start work.. then opening kacang... but kris wan lunch so went buy lunch.. in the end do flr, sean did not come.. haha.. not too bad. except for the tight timing and running and clearing... not tt bad a day.. at least not KC.. then saw marvin and lai, went to haf a drink with them... orange soda.. then we chat and talk and haf fun.. so nice!!! then went home.. maple so pekchek.. server change lah.. then do for sometime the finally can.. peh finally party wif us.. for those who no play, it means join the gang.. can help each other.. then went to sleep at 3 plus, cannot tahan le

thurs, 25 nov
happy bdae to dora... ur bdae.. had fun.. sorry call ya at the wrong time.. :X
then today is 4E7 gathering.. hee hee.. met up wif lots of old classmates.. which long time no see. haha.. then b4 tt, went to J8, with intents to shop and had lunch.. thanks XIAN.. great bud, accompany me.. then saw the 14 trainee.. haha.. flooded the box office and cb.. tml, going to train ppl i reckon.. haha.. bet its me to train.. but i am still hopeful *cross fingers* then the gathering was great, had it at mache, wif good food and good company, time flew by.. had photos taken... and i mean photoS.. haha.. think 28 ppl went.. not a bad no. then exchange and update no. haha.. then went to J8 and continue my hyper mood.. haha.. great day today.. enjoyed myself.. happy!!!

-=:agu:=- HyPerActIve Is WhEn I ConCenTrAte To HaVe FuN!!!

Sunday, November 21, 2004

worried

hi bloggie.. sorry not being blogging for the past few days.. being bz at work... and life became a routine... either work or home.. but slping only early in the morning.. haha.. will have to adjust back my biological clock... anyway... thanks to the Incredibles and Shutter, we are seeing the crowd coming back... being sweeping after rich brats and serving kids with fat wallets... y is mine tt thin!? then went to watch GV TM family with xian, yan jing, jin hui, dora and yan jing's bro, fude... he, like his sis, quite outgoing. took the intiative and seem to have a rough idea where he wans to head... not a bad chap... then watched without a paddle the movie sacreened there.. lame movie.. not worth watching... Mildred is bishan manager representaticve.. and saw Sze yin... and cecilia, karen from TM.. haha.. then went to walk ard TM and century square b4 heading for work... my sis came to watch the Incredibles today.. then.. heard from my mum then my eldest uncle is hopitalised... hai.. no wonder today pass by his shop no open.. sadded.. cried at work.. when cannot tahan le.. coz.. he is like the head of this big family... he is the eldest bro from my mama side, and he took great care of juniors like us.. v loving and definitely a great uncle.. v worried bout him.. he is the role model of the family.. v worried... then think coz i no slp the day b4.. so no hyper.. then this happen.. then my mood is like hyper (short spans of attention) then quiet until even i also not used.. sorry to all if i like attitude... its not me.. hard to control.. having to control tears is not easy... the best way to control the tears is not to do anything.. if not ppl say a little sensitive, i can cry a waterfall..

i tried to be strong.. but too sensitive.. thus, emotion is greater in prowess.. hai.. cried alot these few days.. where is the old me.. sian...

-=:agu:=- The barriers Cannot contain the tears...they juz flow out steadily....

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

timetable

hi bloggie... today was a~okay!!! haha.. played maple till 4 am then slept at 6... having headaches recently... dunno y... being having them.. on and off... made me v irritable... hai.. then yesterday was chaotic at work.. got shift here and there.. then not feeling well.. i wept coz got nervous breakdown.. haha... before everyone panic.. i say first.. its OK.. haha.. 3 reasons i cried... i not feeling well.. the damn corn is so overwhelming.. i felt like puking... and suffering from serious headache.. then... 2nd reason.. i felt v innocent.. i was transferred to kacang due to some miscommunication.. then i admit i face black black.. haha... sorry kris.. i dun mean to like gif u black face.. but i haf no idea wat is happening.. no one bothered to explain to me.. then i felt angry abt it.. then plus not feeling well, on verge to tears.. finally cried when xian come out to "relief" me.. she noticed i was abt to faint *tt's according to her... i am not.. juz looked sick tt's all* then she come out.. i sick plus angry plus gan dong.. hey i emotional creature.. so tears starts to fall.. then ting come out.. bee and peh keep asking me bout my well being.. then cried to myself a bit.. then lai cum, relief me.. was a little pissed by him.. coz.. i was transported to kacang coz of him and francis.. then finally all emotions lead to a limit.. and *rain*... kris took me to office to make me confess up!!! haha.. then finally calm down.. so ppl.. I AM SERIOUSLY OKAY... juz too emotional... this is for clearing up once and for all...

today, went to watch shark tale... 6.50... hai.. not a fantastic movie in terms of graphic and storyline... results.. finding nemo win!!! handsdown.. now is incredibles.. haha.. waiting for its launch.. haha.. then today after movie, went for lunch and walked ard J8.. b4 settling at coffeebean.. when those working (rene, xian, ting, peh) start work.. i n lai head home.. had a good sleep.. haha.. okay.. shall end here.. got comments i am writing essay here.. hahaha...

ps: NP peeps, timetable is out.. haf a peek.. and tues is my IS day.. hehe.. choosing intercultural communication and understanding financial statements... hahaha

-=:agu:=- EduCatIon Is KiCkinG BaCk SooN...

Monday, November 15, 2004

results

hi bloggie... sorry.. naughty me being too tired to update... haha.

12 nov fri
after recieve result.. dunnoe due to excitement can't sleep.. or too happy.. anyway... slept at 6 then wake up at 9.30... meet up wif eunice and xian for breakfast.. and rene lata came along.. haha.. xian and rene a little shock to see eunice.. coz... so qiao.. eunice the nite b4 ask me whether wan to play badminton.. and so zhun she wan play today.. so juz asked her along.. after breakfast.. we headed down to teck ghee CC... haha.. not bad... finally played a longer game and i am seriously having the urge to improve my game now.. last time play is like leisure.. now.. is haivng an AIM to improve.. haha.. then after tt we head back to central... at first wan play pool de.. then a call from wence spoilt the plan.. hai.. Sean did not work.. say he is needed at home.. then i haf to go work early .. and my only box closing haf to surrender to HAO EN.. WTH.. hai.. sadded by then... then... reach there.. everyone tease me that my "BELOVED DISCIPLE aka SEAN" did not come.. got realli pissed by then that i actually throw a small temper and spouting the "F" word.. haha.. not at customer le.. but when i count float.. i calmed down le, then started to say its retribution.. uncle wence lah.. laff so loud.. lucky by then i calm down.. if not.. maybe i realli pissed.. anyway.. i started to say he will haf his retribution.. haha.. then started to curse everyone will haf retribution.. in a more funny way.. then when hao en come.. i am realli impressed.. he is considered an old hand... even supposedly more experienced then me.. yet his speed is same as SEAN.. oh my.. was so impressed by his crawling speed that i haf to like serve faster.. haha.. then.. imagine this.. MIDNIGHT SHOW GOT QUENE... oh my god... its not say having blockbuster tt can kill u type of period yet.. and definitely mid nite show... always ppl buy early.. due to his speed got quene.. WOW!!! then after work see Mildred sick.. so accompanied her till she finished.. scare she faint or anything.. then go home went to orh...

13 nov sat
today sleep until v late.. then had lunch.. orignally wanted to go down wif xian to century square to visit yan jing and jin hui.. but i no time.. will be late for work.. so forget it.. anyway.. worked boox wif rene.. was okay... saw the comeback of bee's nite and mildred take MC.. so is kris... xian at kacang become ultimate sian.. haha.. then after work go home.. see naruto 108 then went to sleep

14 nov sun
*selemat hari raya*
today wake up eat watch some tv and off to work.. kacang today.. okay... got cash register.. learn how to use and i start work.. nth to sell.. haha.. then i see CB mid shift then realise y.. haha.. anyway.. today work was ookay... got 1 pt i felt like puking and haf headache.. dunnoe xian is she tt observant or she nth to do she came out.. say want relief me for a while.. then got chase to CB... anyway.. realli thanks.. shall conclude u are observant.. haha.. then waited for lai.. he do EOS.. long time no see this buddy le.. haha.. anyway.. waited for him.. then watch some part of the incredibles.. so funny... will go watch de. hehe i strongly encourage.. i laff until xian ask me to laff softer.. but real funny.. haha.. coz.. normally.. i will not go sneak watch a movie if i wan to watch it lata.. but the incredibles is tt good tt it can lure me to stay... realli.. v good... for me.. i realli like pixar, and disney co operation.. pixar provide realistic graphic while disney the storyline.. haha.. the incredibles did not fail my expectation.. and definitely is the anticipated movie of the year.. for the sharktale.. it seems to be paler.. haha.. i luv pixar and disney animation.. hot fav like finding nemo, monster inc. , toy story 1 and 2... and bug's life... they realli outdone themselves time and time again.. toy story wowed the world with the amaxing graphic.. monster inc. touched our hearts, finding nemo is a break thru in technology and the incredibles is bringing super heros theme back on track... v nice.. haha.. due to the incredibles and my luv for movies.. i shall put something new on the side panel...

now see ppl result, a little sian.. this is wat happened if u compared results.. i v happy when i noe i passed all my modules and at least gotten a C.. but lata.. see my GPA.. i sian.. see ppl one.. all 3 and above... mine a lousy 2.19.. i noe i shouldn't feel so lousy and the exams are alreadi over... but.. i am who i am.. a taurean, a person who value pride far too much.. hai.. i shld be contend.. i will learnt to be.. but for now i am v sadded by wat i got.. i am not regretting tt i did not study harder.. but i could do so much better if i did try harder... can't i? maybe i realli choose the wrong course.. maybe i shld haf followed my strength.. not my interest.. i luv science to bits... but i like biz too.. maybe not as strong as sci.. but i do like them.. i am a logical person.. trained to think rational and logically.. maybe due tt, i can survive math in sec school wifout studying much.. i luv sci for i am curious bout the small things that make us sick.. and the lure of the up coming big industry.. haha.. if i tell ya i enrolled wat i enrolled due to interest only.. i am bluffing.. i am also looking at the industry lata on.. in another few more years... s'pore will be wat we called a medical hub.. i will haf no worries to find a job.. even now.. ppl in my course is highly sought after.. its such lure that makes me choose wat i chose... but i do like biz too.. i like anything tt allows me to do analyse... i can analyse that a medical hub is setting up.. so analysing is not a prob... haha.. i sometimes wonder wat would haf happen if i choose biz.. at least, i noe i haf alot of ppl to help me if i dunno.. haha.. anyway.. this sem haf passed, i finally learn wat is fear.. maybe i can learn wat is study... anyway.. haf to start choosing IS... (TP called it CDS, for TP peeps who dun understand).. one from biz, one from communication.. i haven decide wat i wan.. hopefully something i can manage.. hai.. y didn't i get into TP... they only need to fulfill 10 credits units for their CDS (in short, shorter hrs in school) maybe LSCT more tough.. this sem.. i haf to spend 28 hrs per week in school.. last sem 26hrs the sem b4, 25 hrs.. got ppl as much as ours? nx sem think even more tough.. not to and this sem got to feed the freaking fishes!!! haha.. and the endless projects... well i think tt's all.. hafing said my peace, i shall retire...

-=:agu:=- A journey to any where still have to start with that first step...

Friday, November 12, 2004

pass

hi bloggie.. wat an early entry.. well today is the release of result.. actually, wanted to wait till 4 am then go sleep de then i forgot need to help my mum burn her cd.. so burn it for her.. she need to return the cd the nx day.. anyway.. my wait was over.. think one of the few to get the result first hand... finally at 5 am.. the result release.. and i juz finished my cd burning.. so i go check it out.. so happy to see NPAL page.. but scare too.. anyway.. saw my result.. a major relieve.. this sem is the hardest sem.. i told someone b4.. if i ever ever get Ds for this sem for all the module.. i would haf been damn happy(forgive my language) and.. i gotten Cs for them.. well not the fantastic result compared to last sem.. but to me... its more than enough.. i am v happy le... imagine the burden being relieve.. before tt.. i was actually v anxious abt the result.. nv b4 i had such a sensation.. even O level release result also not as anxious as now.. maybe coz now the stakes are higher.. phew... ok.. shall review.. IMM(the hardest subject) C, AMB( the most irritating notes) C, AQUA(The one i nv studied and fear most when result release) C, Math and Stats 2( the common test tt i failed miserablely) C+, Perl (the programming that made me go arrgh) C+, PQS( the IS That i felt its dumb) C+.. as u can see v normal.. actually not v good result.. but, i haf conquer the hardest sem in the shortest time.. to me, its everything in the world.. at least.. its not Ds... v v relieve...

haven being updating huh.. haha.. well bz at work.. seen the schedule.. oh boy.. being getting 6 Days.. hahha. short handed and bz period.. still mapling... work last nite was dreaded.. haha.. cb closing is a norm to me.. but i haf to work wif hao en and chanrajit.. its not their prob.. its mine.. i haf a perpection prob to their working capability.. haha.. actually wat i meant is.. it is a hard time for me to work with one working robot who literally take instructions and must be given specifically and don't do things on initiative and one who is not up for CB.. haha.. well.. thanks for alan, ting and xian help.. if not.. i think i will be boiling mad.. playing badminton lata.. will definitely be at ease.. i haf attained a more peaceful feeling and bursting with joy.. haha.. anyway.. thanks for all the well wishes from those who wished me lucks on my results.. and i am real glad, i can promote.. now the fun part is who is coming wif me... best of lucks guys..

quoting from kelvin : " We Shall Graduate as A Class"
to do that.. we shall promote together!!!

oh ya.. Hi! send info on instructor course.. haha... dun think can attend.. this time rd.. timing is even tighter than last.. i dun even noe if i can spare time for rehearsals for the LSCT student-staff day performance..

-=:agu:=- for the first time... i really am anxious.. for the first time.. i felt the sheer joy of content..

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

sian...

hi bloggie.. today off day.. so rest at home.. last nite choing maple with xian.. then was quite okay... i wan to lvl up real fast.. then sleep at 6 am... wake up at 11.30 to sms xian so she will not be late for work. if not, i sure guilty.. haha.. coz she pei wo chiong maple.. then went back to sleep... officially woke up at 2 plus.. then pack my room, change bedsheet... haha.. realise i can only do such things on OFF day.. working of the past week.. tired but fun.. today.. can relax a bit.. but as the day go by.. sianzation is here to conquer.. turns out to be a very sian day.. had a bite after i showered and played some maple and read some pages of the book, before i declare BORING... hai... not a social animal but i do crave company.. so sian.. sis study o level so cannot turn up vol in living room.. hide in bedroom, face my four lonely wall.. resulting a sian me... hai.. heard today got 2 person MC, and 1 MIA.. yet no calls.. haha.. seem like today they had enuff staff.. but boring me.. v sian.. haha.. dunno.. suddenly, i felt v lonely, i wan to hide in somewhere... i dunno leh.. v weird feeling.. hai.. nvm.. maybe lata will feel better.. for now.. let me ponder and self torture in this weird feeling...

-=:agu:=- For Once, My Mind Is Blank... My Train of Thoughts Have Stopped Somewhere... Until Its Return, I Shall Remain An Empty Shell..

pride, ambitions, dreams, hope!?

Dreams, many have them yet don't own them
Hope, many own them yet hope can desert them
Pride, many have them yet not all protect them
Ambitions, many turn dreams into them with actions and carry hopes and together with pride to achieve them...

4 simple words, linked together....
We Have always valued our pride,
and hope that all our dreams will come true,
and secretly turning them into ambitions.
Yet, to attain our ambitions, we may give up pride.
Or, we maintain pride to hold our ambitions down.
Both acts often cause misunderstanding or even be irritants to others, as not all share the same ideology.
At Times, people claim that we hold unrealistic ambitions and damper our hope.
Its good to ignore such advice,
but good to heed them sometime.
The hardest part would be the choice.
Which to trust or not to trust other's judgement,
and Whether confidence in self is huge.
Most of the times, we dreamt about the fruit we bore if we ever achieve our ambitions.
Some call it day dreaming, other call it goals.
But the Common things between the 2 opinions is, the ambition is still at large.
Wise Men of time, once said, only true hardwork, with small ounce of lucks, and great foresight can truely achieve their goals.
But Diginity shall remained.
Hope shall be strong.
and Dreams Shall be achieved.

-=:agu:=-

ps: some crap i come up.. still not very organised.. but hope u guys like it.. haha.. maybe some genunine comments to improve them!! thanks lots.. hope all our dreams and hope come true, and achieve our ambitions with pride.


work...

hi bloggie, working today.. haha.. BOX late mid.. work wif shoba mama.. today, actually got badminton.. but no court.. then i sleep at home loh.. haha.. also read the novel.. nice... but too fanciful in description.. hmm.. saw marvin today.. after so long.. he was attached to BEST Denki at J8.. haha.. so nice to see this old chap.. v happy.. did some catching up.. today work was fun and basically crapped alot.. haha.. wif lame jokes from infamous peh and newcomer xian, haha.. and due to some confusion and lame acts, she become shoba mama, god daughter... aka, my god sister.. ahha... so old le still play family tree.. haha... anyway, work was okay today.. we basically crap.. think coz its uncle wence.. he also lamer!!!

ps: sorry, change song again.. coz finally found this!!!


-=:agu:=- WE ARE FIGHTING DREAMERS!!!!

Sunday, November 07, 2004

work, shark tale, princess diaries

hi bloggie.. back to blogging.. being watching naruto(finally catch up le) and working, and mapling.. haha.. the past few days were okay.. fun at work and play.. watched princess diaries testprint wif only xian while others snooze... hmmm had a small bdae celebration for xian few days ago and think everyone had a good time!! haha... then today got crowd woah.. haha.. finally, wif the help of shark tale and princess diaries maybe... juz maybe, gv bishan can reach its peak again!? haha.. kris went austrailia, then juz saw wence today(finally.. ) haha... seem like now is work and play.. haha.. blogging also little less... haha.. i also cannot remember much.. but definitely had a good time!!!

P.S. : Dr. Lim (my mentor) juz given birth on 5 nov.. haha.. congrats!!!

-=:agu:=- Reward the good... Not the Gender...

Thursday, November 04, 2004

sianzation

hi bloggie.. being some time no blog.. previous days were bz at work, movies, play, naruto.. haha...then... recently female hormone too active, haha.. PMS and all.. get more emotional, in terms of good and bad.. throw tanturm that scares everyone... haha.. sorry.. especially to xian and ting for my behaviour.. sorry ah... then watched a no. of movies.. yes.. movies.. realli luv them to bits.. there is nth to do in s'pore except movies and pool!! haha.. anyway, watched maria full of grace, spanish movie, and ladder 49.. wif rene, xian and ting.. nice movie.. for maria full of grace, worth 7.50.. a award winning film, wif realistic but harsh truth.. see how drug traffickers haf to fear, the custom or the small but deadly pellets.. not an easy task.. then ladder 49... cried my heart out.. v nice.. 7.50 to 8.50.. realli.. go watch.. the action is juz a cover for the human touch of this film... the touching factor is the one tt realli made me appreciate this movie, the movie is realistic and show the humanly factor!!

quoting from the movie "People often asked me, how is it that fire fighter can run into a building, when others run out.. courage is the answer"
shows the true human nature, the human instinct to run out, but also shows the true courage!! remarkable movie...

then being at work.. hmm.. working is okay.. today got slightly more to handle.. but overall is okay.. mapling now i guess...

-=:agu:=- quoting from naruto "i will never go back on my words... its my way of the ninja!"

Sunday, October 31, 2004

class gathering... working... bz ah!!!!

yo bloggie... being bz and tired tt i haf lost touched to the online world... haha... anyway.... cont'd from last entry

28 oct thurs
meet my classmates at somerset MRT for dinner.. after everyone appeared we went to rice table to eat... haha... the dinner was great.. pityt sok leng, gracia, rekha, sarsi cold not come.. xiqo wei also did not appear, which is not bad.. haha.. i am so bad... the dinner was great... buffet like... they whipped out lots of dishes and we eat to our heart's content... Dr. Lim got a shock wif our class appetite... we ate lots... haha... our class is realli into food i guess... we can realli take our time and eat and chat over the table.. great for bonding!!! haha... after dinner... i went to marina bay MRt to look for xian.. haha.. saw her wif her frens... good that she enjoyed herself... v good... she appeared v happy.. haha.. think her frens entertain her v well!! haha... we went to toa payoh for a game of pool b4 heading home.. haha... played maple at home and chat wif her... glad xian like the CD... the effort of everyone paid off.. especially jason and lai for their flash.. and yan jing, jin hui, dora and derrick for their photos... realli thanks alot!!!

29 oct fri
meet xian for a movie at marina... haha.. someone was supposed to come to my hse to bring my breakfast... but claim tt i nv replied her so she no come!!! haha... meet her at AMK interchange and we went to marina square for a movie of wimbledon!!! not bad.. 7.50 bah... entertaining and was even feeling like i was watching a tennis match!!! haha... after tt we went to toa payoh library to borrowsome books b4 heading for bishan!!! i was rotting for 2 hrs b4 i can start work!!! believe it!! i start work at 8 pm.. meaning EOS!!! haha... today was quite okay! no tt bz!!! went home at 4 plus.. by then was too tired so went to bed

30 oct sat
meetin rene and xian for manchurian candidate.. 6.50 or 7.50 movie bah.. not tt bad.. pretty impressive in terms of story line!! okay movie... then we went to haf a bite and chat till its time to work... working box closing... got trainee and was vomitting blood... someone shld call the red cross... haha... can collect the blood for donation!!! hhaha.. then stayed to help kris to do her stuff.. so ended up going home at 4 plus.. meaning... too tired again to online!! haha..went to slp.. zzzzz

31 oct sun
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
haha... was working at 3 pm... cb closing.. finally working wif cindy... my sis's fren de sis.. haha.. complicated!? haha.. anyway.. work today was okay... then hor.. got 1 idiot... hai.. i claimed her to be my buddy.. but when cindy ask her whether we 2 good fren or not.. she say we are colleague... hai... sad... haha.. i not she juz kidding.. so i juz played along.. i teased her the same.. we are only colleague.. haha... so sad hor... hai.. so muz announced... Li Jing Xian.. is not my buddy.. juz my colleague... haha.... Juz kidding.. she is still my buddy..... so u better be grateful... haha... KRIS IS NOT ADORABLE AT ALL!!! haha... she is juz oppostie me.. saying how cute she is... so old still so.... hai... dun noe how to say le..

-=:agu:=-makin acquaintance is the first step to having a buddy..

Thursday, October 28, 2004

chalet!!!

hi bloggie... back from the chalet.. woah.. and boy am i tired!!! haha... but gonna blog then maybe take a nap... lata still haf class gathering... -.- haha... BROKE!!!!

let see..

26 oct... tue
played maple till wee hrs again.. then gotten all moody and then blog.. then went to orh orh.. haha.. then meet ting 11 am... but was late.. coz i cannot wake up and i haven pack bag =p... then went NTUC to check out the prices and do an estimate shopping list.. coz this time rd.. we are going to hit the kitchen and whip up dishes!! haha.. going to ALOHA Loyang Government Chalet.. my mama help us book.. hee hee.. quite cheap and then after our survey at the NTUC... i follow ting to her hse.. coz her mama got cook... and my share too... THANKS AUNTIE..(ting help me say!!!) haha..then we wait for lai to come to carry the drinks to the chalet... once we reached pasir ris, white sand mac(we were seriously late beyond time...) we took a break and resume "shopping" at the NTUC... thanks reagan for taking care of our bags... =).. haha.. then we took cabs down to the chalet (coz v v heavy and alot of things.. i haf my laptop and my bag is so so so heavy) haha.. reagan got bring PSII but cannot play.. too bad.. kuDos to my Laptop to bring entertainment.. haha.. (sound so BHB) then, after check in.. i and ting went out again.. to do some stuff... for now, shall not tell... will let u guys noe in near future.. which will be v near.. rite ting *wink* haha... then went back juz in time for dinner.. and i was hungry.. haha.. had a wide spread of spag..(which everyone is too full to haf seconds... ) the oatmeal was great... and the found out the tons of oil they use... -.-... felt like they were feeding pigs :x.. but the dinner was great.. after dinner.. watched tv and everyone took turns to shower.. while peggy had to go home.. she best.. thurs got paper.. still can come.. haha.. then we played cards and guessing games.. haha.. some one act it out.. we guess... the game master, pl, cums out wif ingenious phases and boy... were we tickled.. haha.... all thanks to lai and jy funny impersonation of the "chicken laying eggs" and "spirit', and "true"!!! haha.. so funny... then peh who was helping me out with my stuff... was tickle too.. all of us in the living room was roaring wif laughter.. poor cy and reagan trying to sleep in the room was interupted... sorry guys.. we finally decided to crash out at 4.. all suffering from the after effects of laffing... tummy ache.. peh... he continue help me till 6 am... thanks peh.. u are the best!!! then zzzz....

27 oct wed
today sleep until 11.30 everyone then bothered to wake up.. haha.. wif peh preparation of french toast, and lai's and reagan wif the scrambled and fried eggs and the campbell soup.. the guys terrorise the kitchen.. thanks guys.. help fill our stomach wif eggs!!! haha... then we played worms and slack and wait for yenny's arrival!! haha.. and i watched my Naruto... while lai, peh, reagan and cy were out in the pool.. sharks i forgot mine.. so no go.. then after yenny's arrival.. we went to rent bikes and cycle!!! haha.. peggy finally grasp the technique of cycle.. we went bac lata to do the curry.. actually is yenny's mum recipe but yenny... well done.. it was splendid.. haha.. cycled to cheers to buy back snacks and drinks... had a drink or two during this chalet.. had hooch on tue and bacardi on wed.. ahha.. naughty me!! =p... still like hooch better!! haha..then, went nite cycling while jy try to master blading... (Who in the rite mind learnt blading at nite and wif 4 non- skaters!!!) anyway.. had laffs and we went back.. watched HONEY... so nice.. luv the songs inside.. by the time we are done is 3 plus am le.. peh help me rush the stuff while we get rdy for bed... but.. JY.. hai.. sleep so much in the afternoon... want to play... irritate us to play.. and finally at 4 plus... we manage to haf our eyes shut..

28 oct, thurs
HAPPY BDAE TO XIAN.. finally 18.. finally can buy alcoholic drink wifout me!! haha.. train up ur tolerance orh!!!
haha... anyway, checked out today.. the inspector came to check walked ard and all.. haha.... we all laze ard.. then heading for home... peh forgot charger so we went back to take.. and took the bus to Pasir ris MRT.. and i take 88 home.. haha.. now a little more awake.. gonna sleep awhile and then go to meet for class gathering.. will update bout tonight!!!

p.s: if leave out any details will reblog in the nx entry

-=:agu:=- Good Times Dun Last, Good Memories Do...

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

sour

hi bloggie.. tml going chalet.. was working today... hai..
dunno.. all of a sudden.. had this emotion coming over me.. the midi suits this feeling now..
was thinking alot of things when playing maple.. hai.. things are not within control.. trigger alot of feelings and memories...
i dunno y.. y such a feeling occur... but... now it happen.. i dunno how to stop it.. maybe... after tears dried.. and maybe then.. juz maybe.. i will feel better

-=:agu:=- ThinGs Not TurNiNg Out the wAy theY are, coZ u Can'T ConTroL eVerYthiNg

Monday, October 25, 2004

holiday le

hi bloggie.. sorry.. lazy to update.. even though was online.. playing maplestory.. Online game.. haha.. anyway its time to relax for now.. hai.. fri aqua paper got potential to fail.. now v scare.. then past few days working and playing maple story.. work 3 days in a row wence nite.. haha.. worked box closing on fri.. EOS on sat.. and box closing again on sun... lata... goign to work cb closing.. then tue is chalet le.. haven plan wat to buy.. sorry guys.. i haven make up shopping list.. hee hee.. will sms u guys tml bout wat time we meeting bah... hmm.. lets see... work was okay for the past few days... crappy ppl.. wif siao ppl.. so haf fun loh.. hahaa... wence getting lamer... then... overall more relaxed now.. haha... maple story was okay bah.. the graphic v kiddish...but can get addicted.. coz i not playing alone... =p.. haha.. oh ya.. got redo blog design on fri... hope its okay.. haha... then i juz did a small change juz now.. quite like the effect now.. haha.. any comments???

oh ya.. juz realise my schedule v pack.. haha.. for this week... =p

-=:agu:=- ThE WorSt FeaRs HiDes InSide U....

Thursday, October 21, 2004

IMM over... AQUA IS HERE!!!!

hi bloggie.. being some time i blog huh.. hai... think tt realli can't study at home... the internet world holds much moer passion for me!! haha.. although i was online.. i also lazy to blog... dunno y.. hmmm lets see

18 oct mon
unproductive.. the notes doesn't wan to stick in my brain... hai.. then online chat for like .... haha.... like i said... unproductive... hai...

19 oct tue
AMB paper is due on this dreaded day.. hai... the paper was okay i guess.. hopefully i can pass... i dunno... i v scare retain.. hai... went home did not study much for IMM

20 oct wed
SUPER UNPRODUCTIVE.. IMM paper nx day yet can online and do blog design.. write testi.. hai.. dunno y... at night finally got a little panic went to study..

21 oct thurs
thanks to xian, yan jing and jin hui... i woke up at 5 plus.. told xian to wake me up.. she rang me up.. and thanks to the ghostly "good morning" by the other 2.. i got a shock and i am up... they had a couples of drinks, okay maybe mouthful of drinks( awful tolerance level) haha... and lack of sleep.. they a little "high"... hope they rest well today.. so tml i can haf my badminton *pray!!!* haha... thanks alot *bow*.. today paper was okay i guess... hmm... can pass i hope... *hope*... haha.. then went to mac at KAP to makan.. wif jan, pris and gracia.. haha.. we sort of recieve presidential service by this mac biz consultant.. he was doing survey and all.. so we got all our food delievered and recieve a free... dunno wat.. haha.. then went home.. orh orh.. all till juz now then wake up... MY FISH... hai.. tml last paper.. aquaculture... okok.. better start studying some.. but everyone is in the holiday mood le...

ps: i itching for badminton.. hope yan jign can fulfill my small small wish... haha... JK!!! no pressure...

-=:agu:=- friends are like wine.. they get better wif age!!!

Monday, October 18, 2004

car break down!!!

hihi... juz reach home only... haha... went out to study.... hmm let's see.. slept late last nite.. in the end woke up late.... meet ting to study and finally gracia is able to pass me my notes!!! haha... anyway... today study quite okay.. going to study some more.... i think if not tt tired.. haha.. then saw YEE SZE JIA!!!! haha... tt day was toking wif elyn and siyi we tok abt this tall tall gal... she still so tall!!!! hai!!! anyway... miss her alot woah... long time no see her le... she still so chatty and i felt like i lose contact wif her for quite some time (which is true) haha.. then we had some fun chatting and catching.. after the As.. we shall find one day to meet up!! haha..then went down to J8 again.... chit chat wif sze yin and cheow tee.. and poke fun of mildred and kris... ahha.. then today got police case.. stupid customer lah... hai... haf to get the ppl from the security to help wif the camera... haha.. then i lame wif his son and so funny... haha..then we see from the video tt guy made his mistake loh... haha.. nvm... truth tells it all!!! we WIN.. hahah... then lame wif kris le.... hmmm then got other incident happen..... hai.... impression of tt person drop!!! hope he turn back orh.... then kris send us home.. haha... to think her tire puntured!!! OMG... haha.. then lai help her change.. got taxi driver com down to advice lah.. haha.. then i and xian help her sort out the stuff... her boot is damn messy.. haha.. hmm... oh ya... then drive to the nearest petrol koisk.... stupid customer service crew.... trainee some more... say wat drive until dunno how to change tire... wat the... piss off sia.. then went to nx door caltex.. haha... quite an adventure... coz no change tire b4... haha.... then now at home.. not tt tired.. maybe a while more go read notes.. if not go orh!!...


-=:agu:=- PeoPle aRe Not CiviL minDeD enoUgh... At LeasT noT oN thiS SmAll DoT oN EaRth..

Sunday, October 17, 2004

study

hi bloggie.... hmmm... regarding previous entry... i clarify wif lai liao... and peh... in short.. they claim tt during work and during play i like 2 different person... like work v stress like tt... haha... well i do joke when i am in pack room!!! haha... maybe is the characteristic of taurus bah... is like tt de... when i put my heart and head to concentrate on one thing.. i will de.. then if u break tt concentration.. u suffer.. i noe tt i tense up when someone offend me lah.. like irritate me.. but i haven change... haha.. maybe i became more lame.. but i still noe how to joke!!! so guys.. if at work see me serious... juz let me be... coz tt is wat i chose to.. dun worry.. i will still crack lame jokes in pack room!! hee hee... anyway... past 2 days being studying out...

fri paper.. was an okay paper bah... dunno.. can pass hopefully.. got 20 marks should be in the air le.. hai.. think examiner got a shock.. abt more than half the ppl in the exam class turn to the back and do the back qn first.. i learnt my lesson... so i did from the back.. i wan to do the stats part.. 70 % and i glad i did.. coz the math part v difficult or rather more difficult tt past year paper... but overall shld be able to pass.. now the worse has yet to come.. the most feared 3 papers are going to be here soon.. hai...

today went to study at J8... haha... yesterday went home late.. saw kris.. long long time no see her le.. miss her sia.. and we chat and had some fun.. but i did study okay!! then today go yoshi study.. cold!!! saw one waitress tt have the flair of wei qi.. my fren tt i got to noe from Hi!.. haha.. then tired.. got take a short nap.. haha.. going to study tml again... today ah.. saw vanny.. she talk quite a lot wif me.. haha.. also long time no see her.. she actually tok to me bout staff!!1 haha... amazing.. and tell me nx time to go overseas and work.. haha.. she okay lah.. juz tt she need to work like a CM... so sometime can understand her decisions are a little extreme.. but... still respect is gained only when respect is given... yi de fu ren... haha...

haha.. juz now sms yan jing.. free sia ppl.. hai.. but tok abt crappy stuff.. haha... becum like ah ma... hai... i noe i v naggy lah... but no need like tt... and v happy to be invited out on mon.. but mon realli haf to see first.. tue is my nx paper... i think u guys enjoy urself bah.. anyway... tue is u guys chalet.. haf fun orh... will be missing u guys... not... haha... juz kidding.. juz haf fun!!!

Respect...
A moral value that is to be taught since young...
A value that is cultivated in the civil minded...
A basic principle that all should show...
and
To command it, one needs to have integrity...
To gain it, one needs to give it to others...
To give it, one must acknowledge the person's goodwill...

-=:agu:=- Respect the young like you respect the elders...

Friday, October 15, 2004

blur

hi bloggie.. long time no go lai's blog.. then i see i blur.. he blog lah.. but hor.. i see the content i blur somemore.. no wonder ting thot wat happen to me, lai and jy... hai... i v innocent leh.. coz wat lai say... i dun ming bai.... haha...

lai's msg to me

agu: erm ... Dunno how to tell u ... maybe let u read yrself ba ... recently .. we felt that u change le .. change to another person .. someone that i am not familiar to .. a stranger? u are not the same as b4 .. ppl are right ... humans changes ... erm u will wonder y we say u change le .. erm ... that is something to do wif GV ba ... erm i also dunno hw to tell u .. u go frigure out yourself ba .. erm being yr gd fren or bEst fren or wad fren .. thus i wan to tell u this .. if not i heck le lo ... jus wanna let u knw we care!

first things.. u guys are my pals... so tell me wat is happening...
next can someone tell me how i changed...
third... i think maybe the time factor... long time no see le becum like tt???
fourth.. i agree ppl do change... but i dun noe i change for good or bad...
fifth... i noe u guys care.. i do too.. so can someone explain to me

i want to clarify wif lai.. haha.. he told me he himself also dunno.. haha.. juz got tt kind of feeling.. hai... maybe bah.. i change i also dunno...
i agree... now i throw more tantrum... starting to be a nuisance and naggy and maybe tt is the change bah... i changed for the worse bah... hai.. so i changed... will the change be tt drastic.. i dunno... i now.. got more worries? i dunno.. i feel tt i bear more hatred now... maybe not hatred but i not as happy go lucky as b4.. i used v rude words more often now... and definitely harbour dislike of others more...
sorry for all my nagging, my tantrum.. my teasing....
maybe my words became a weapon of hurt...
sorry for my mean words... unintentionally hurting u....
maybe i shld juz quiet down...

change...
a difference in one....
yet affects many...
some changes is worth celebrating...
some changes invite criticisms...
some.. juz plain exist due to circumstances...
can i reverse some of the changes?
can i juz exist without changing?
can all these actually occur?

-=:agu:=- unintentionally, my joke causes your wound....

Thursday, October 14, 2004

study

hi bloggie.. today chiong study.. did some summary.. think quite okay.. tml try to finish the rest and attempt the bloody sample paper.. haha.. opps.. sorry bout the language.. thanks all for ya reply on the chalet... realli appreciate them... hmm today was studying wif ting... then saw yan rong wif yi hui... (my SJAB cum deyi seniors) then also saw yi bin, ah keong, janice and ling zhi.. my poly classmates.. haha.. all at KFC... then even sae B.B... and siyi.. haha.. elyn lah... then they 2 cum.. crap so much.. haha.. but had a good time.. miss them too.. miss Deyi.. miss gv... miss everything but exams.. haha.. then xian came..we go eat dinner... at J8.. saw mildred and micky changing poster.. hai.. mildred so tall tall.. she no need the chair also can reach.. win le.. ahha.. then tok wif them for a while and then go eat dinner.. haha.. then dinner tt time.. xian jokingly say dun wan see me.. we were discussing badminton sessions.. then i quiet loh.. haha..then i played along.. became moody lah.. until a little too convincing.. tt it goes out of hand.. aha.. walked and walked.. take bus send xian home.. coz i v sian anyway.. then we tokked loh.. bout today... bout her frens.. ahha... then after tt went home..

haha.. heard tt today yan jing had a good time.. and see her blog le... exciting day sia.. *envy* haha...

human are creatures filled with ambitions and desires...
we envy others for the things we want...
we are jealous about other achievements and success...
we crave for recognitions from others..
and most of the time, we do gain them...
yet such recognitions are due to jealousy...
we are constantly looking out for wat others have,
yet not noticing we have what others want..
if only we knew,
we will be content,
but we would not have the motivation to improve...

-=:agu:=- anger is a force that allows the bearer to have immerse confidence at a high cost...

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

school to study

hi bloggie.. went back to school to study.. was okay.. quite productive i guess... haha.. then tml meeting ting for revision chionging session... haha.. i also miss da time when we always got to the KFC to support their 2 piece chicken meal while studying... hai... sad sia.. y poly so stress...

oh ya.. happy bdae yan jing!!! happy birthday to u.. u are born in the zoo... opps!!! wrong version... haha... nonetheless happy birthday to u...

for yan jing:
Your very first cry brings smile and joy to others...
your existence create chapters in others lifelong book...
Your friends are lucky to know u!!!

-=:agu:=- memories are recorder tt write down history in ur mind...

Monday, October 11, 2004

went out

hi bloggie being a bad gal today.. studied last night after xian logged off.. but the sleep bug soon caught up.. then studied some.. then went to TM to meet xian, yan jing and jin hui for movie.. haha.. naughty hor.. on my way i also got study.. haha.. then.. siang hoe and derreck!?(correct?!) tag along.. asked dora but she not free..
haha.. went to watch exorcist.. can't believe i watch it... watch the first movie at the age of 12.. the terror still is... scary... althought this movie not scary compared to tt but reminds me of the first movie.. the staircase scene!!! arggh... better not think of it.. li jingxian.. all ya fault.. haha... but i think i also scared her.. first time see me so scare bah.. almost to tears.. but the movie not tt scary... i mean if being objective... haha.. demonic.. yes.. very... christian best advised to not watch this movie.. i wanted to cry not cause the movie is too scary.. but too demonic.. being exposed to christianity b4... and hafing many christian frens can sort of affect the mood of me watching this movie.. haha... but if toking real true horror... think on par wif dark water... not scary!!! haha... then we went for pool!!! haha.. played 8' feet... haha.. but i still dun haf lady luck.. maybe coz i am naughty today.. but going to study tonight.. real hard i guess... i am an owl anyway!!! hahaha

although we know each other,
but the only thing i know best is the name...
felt like a thorn,
unease in such a big bed of roses,
clinging on to one rose,
with the others in watch...
efforts were made,
to ease the feeling,
but my own barrier forbid it...
appearing sociable and friendly,
is just a false front from me...
perhapes when shyness deserts me,
only then i shall become a rose....

-=:agu:=- i am scare being scarred.. but i am scare of loneliness as well....

Sunday, October 10, 2004

motivation

hi bloggie.. had a slacking day so far... same for yesterdae.. but printed some notes to catch up.. hai.. when will i find tt motivation to study... help me someone.. find life at all time low... i muz start le...

i wrote for shunting: stress is the force that motivate you to pull up your socks... it is a pressure that kills many

stress...
an all powerful force that we face everyday..
a force not be reckon with...
from school pressure to money woes..
we encounter them..
sometimes stress enable us to complete task within deadline...
yet most of the time made us uptight and emotionally unstable..
many weep at the presence of stress...
others became more angry...
stress made us envy the little one with their carefree thinking..
prehapes their only worry is their toys...
environment contribute greatly to this force...
peer pressure and expectations increase its effect..
determination required to deal it..
alas the only problem is where do i get this determination...
this determination to tide me over this storm....
for will i ever see the sun or will i loom in this storm...

-=:agu:=- the opinion of a wise one is better than the certainty of an ignorant one...

Saturday, October 09, 2004

finally end of school... but exams are near

yo bloggie.. finally the school sem ended.. but the exams are near... the last week of school had being eventful and somewhat made me more aware about where i stand... in terms of results... admitting the lazy part of me likes to linger more often then last sem... failing yet not trying... haha... maybe not tt good a cow... (cow is suppose to be hardworking) not living up to the agu status... haha... anyway... felt relieve school's out.. and i try to study as much as i can... so late haven sleep thanks to the tea juz now.. shall update now!!!

mon, 4 oct
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PEH PEH!!!!!!!
had IMM prac test.. pong aqua lec.. haha... coz i tot dun haf.. =p then IMM prac test was okay bah.. the only test i felt pretty confident since IMM started.. then had AMB last lec and math lec.. haha.. today think was okay.. hhaha

tue, 5 oct
after... last night effort in trying to get my damn online ATM for my perl to work... it still choose to reject my pleas.. hai... thus go school seek teacher help... still cannot at the end of the day.. so haf to present on fri.. haha.. then went home to study AMB and Aqua prac... think most of my classmate thong thru the nite.. haha... i sort of bah.. but got tired and slept.. haha..

wed 6 oct
today is killer day.. wif 3 papers on hand and each only an hr to spare!!! wth... 3 papers... 2 prac test and 1 computer stats test.. hai.. poor thing our class is.. each paper is 1 hr and 30 mins interval in between..... hai...first is AMB.. haha.. speed paper.. we haf 12 work stat... 3 mins each stat and last 20 min to complete all the aspect of the paper.. first time in my life to know how short the 3 mins is.. oh man.. finish first qn is like 3 mins up need to move to nx stat.. wth.. then rotate finish le still got more qn... but not a hard paper.. provided u studied.. the good thing bout AMB prac test is.. its all wat u did b4... haha.. i mean wif hands on experience.. its easier... same as IMM paper.. next is round 2 *ding ding* haha... aqua.. KILLER paper.. coz i no study.. hahaa.. not much.. coz this paper is like testing alot loh.. haha.. the no. of diseases is already more than 20.. then no. of ornamental fishes is like 10 plus... hai.. if i pass this paper i v happy.. this is a slow paper.. 7 mins each stat... then by the time i finish my third or fourth stat.. i finish about 3/4 paper.. haha... the rest is observation.. hahaha.. then is math paper.. *round 3.. fight* okay paper.. open book (rare occasion) haha.. then nv study at all.. a little anyhow do.. demoralise.. but over then forget it.. haha.. then after paper had lunch and waited for 2 hrs then i pong class.. basket should haf left sia.. hahaha.... went home early... tried perl but the damn thing can't work.. hai.. first time i encounter difficulty in programming.. think i dun under.. haha.. and also.. i dunno how to check for error.. to debug..

thur 7 oct
went to attend IMM remedial.. retest only got back 53.. miserable.. hai.. nv answer the qn in the way the qn is being asked... bio paper.. facts.. either u noe ur u dun.. and whether u gif the relevant pts.. haha.. then went to ask teacher for help for perl.. do until sort of forgot time.. and already arranged to watch movie wif see hui, chee siew.. wif xian in toll.. haha.. rush down to J8. and made it in time.. watch New Police Story.. okay lah.. if there is price ticket at 7.. i will gif it 7 bucks worth.. but since dun haf.. haf to gif 6.50.. haha... typical story line.. but think the box office success due to jacky chan's fame and chinese falling into the trap.. haha.. then went home.. crash out completely.. hahaha

fri 8 oct
hmm.. went to IMM lec.. got back prac marks.. 38/50!!! good enuff for me le.. v happy.. now waiting for Dr. Lim to tabulate our 60% mark.. haha.. then still need help in perl.. went to look for teacher.. and finally at 3 pm.. finish le.. woah.. so H-A-P-P-Y!!!! haha... sense of achievement!? no lah.. rather sense of relief.. haha.. then forgot to bring Hp.. went home do perl assignment which is to be submitted then went out to relax wif xian..*my fault.. coz she still got 1 more paper..* hahahad dinner wif her and lai.. then pool then we went to J8.. hahha.. had coffee and tea(in my case)... haha.. and cheese cake.. haha.. nice.. sit there and lame.. haha.. then bee also there.. the weird part is all 3 of us no see her.. haha.. and she claim to be in a clear view from us.. haha.. when we first walked into the place shld see her le.. but we did not.. then i went to make a call.. past by her twice.. i even turned to see the table beside her.. but still did not see her.. hahah.. in fact i saw her 2 frens.. same thing for xian.. she went to the ladies.. haha.. and yet no see her.. until when she going to leave stopped by our table.. all 3 kanna shock.. haha.. then we were like teasing and laffing... coz her dance event got publish and got flyer.. we even jest her to sign.. haha.. so funny.. according to bee; someone said this... " i recognise u becoz of ur fats..." hahahaha.. were laffing like mad.. then she left wif her frens.. then lai, xian and me were toking.. from school to gv.. from managers to staff.. then went up to gv after coffee bean staff start closing ceremony. hhaha.. saw kelvin tan.. haha.. chat and wait and laff and joke.. hahaha.. was pretty fun.. ahha.. then kelvin send us home...

now here blogging loh. haha... hmm being doing nth much.. rush off all work and written testi for frens.. exams will be here soon.. the tea is still hafing the effect on me.. maybe start some revision? hahaha.. well think shld stop here le.. getting v naggy ah.. hahaha...

-=:agu:=- being able to create joy to others is a great achievement!!!!

Monday, October 04, 2004

stress out

hi bloggie.. being some time i blog huh.. hahaha.. being bz wif school and realli zone out over the weekend.. hahaha....

tue 28 sep
Mooncake festival.. aka lantern festival... Full Moon!!! hahahahaha....nth much happen.. had perl test... and IMM retest... did not study hard enuff.. can pass... can le..... hahaha.... hopefully... anyway... tiring day.... haha.. i actually met xian for dinner.. this week was supposedly to be her study break.. then lata.. the bored us went for pool... -.-... lame hor.. and i am always the one to nag her to study.. yet this day bring her play pool.. wat's up wif me!!! then we started to "hate" each other.. when the one irritate the other.. we siao siao le... then went home and too tired!!!

wed 29 sep
hmmm... think nth much today.. prac was okay.. so was math tutorial and lec... hahaha... then went home....

thurs 30 sep
today went to St. John Island.. wat in the name is this.. hahaha... being there B4.. lah.. 2nd Poly Excursion (Poly le still need excursion!!!) haha.. went to St. john island to see fish (due to aqua)... had High tech labs there under AVA (Agri Veterinary* Authority) *shld be spelled like tt... hahaha.. then had to take Boat there.. haha... all of us worry gracia will puke.. or emily (they haf serious motion sickness!!!! hahahha.. then i bring my camera to take pic.. will upload them when i more free.. hahahaha.. the trip was okay.. over food and songs... gaga over oldies and boy, our class do noe a few numbers of them.. hahaha... then IMM prac was okay!!! hahaha.. then after IMM.. go for Hi!!! last day of lesson... sad sia.. nx day is Closing le.. weird thing.. Sign up For Hi! lesson twice.. nv attend opening b4.. by chance and by luck.. hahaha.. no choice.. then after short lesson had song signing practice and some short photo taking.. will upload too.. hahaha.. only haf some pic.. made new frens and haf fun wif old classmates.. then after Hi! went to dinner wif Xian Xian.. my Dinner kaki every thurs.. haha.. then had yoshinoya.. to think i reach J8 first.. when somebody was suppose to be at home studying!!! hahaha.... WOLS... anyway.. reach there stun!!! saw Peh Peh work CB.. haha... heard Shortage of manpower.. which is true lah.. Off the whole Week also kanna call back to work!!! applies to me too!!! haha.. fri and sat.. fri i finish Hi! at 7.30... yet go see schedule start work at 7!!! haha.. bee was like paiseh paiseh.. haha.. nth one lah.. bee.. sick sia.. take care lah woman.. GV bishan still haf to relie on u!!1 hahahahah.. then kris work until like crazy.. nite manager tt day.. hahaha.. she actually ask me to stand in for Nur for a while coz Nur not yet rest.. i was like.. who cares bout her.. but thinking colleauge and Kris (u owe me 1 Big Favor ah)... then i help out for 5 mins.. haha.. so funny... then went for dinner... when Xian Xian finally made her arrival!! ahhaha.. then after makan hang out at gv....

fri 1 oct
happy bdae to pal.. PL.. happy Children day (being 6 years already tt i no longer haf this day... sob sob) ahhaha.. school was okay.. then after some perl doing after school.. went to pei PL for a while.. sorry gal... Not Being there for u during this special day.. had song signing after tt.. and saw Weiqi.. haha.. my basic course mate.. hahaha.. sort of got sabo by Yiting (hor hor) coz Yiting gif wrong info.. Weiqi ended up in mon class.. hahaha.. but now in sub com.. can see each other de.. hahaha.. so happy to see Weiqi... still so adorable.. hahaha.. then song signing was okay bah. had fun and laughter.. hahahaha.. then after tt rush to J8.. via Cab... to lazy to take bus.. and late until cannot late le.. so haeck care... (Wence better appreciate it) ahhaha.. then work was okay.. bz at one pt.. but other than tt still okay.. coz today they bothered to haf a late mid for box for me... ahhaha.. Ball!!! ahha.. yes.. working at Box.. hahaha then went home.... oh being called to work morning the nx day by Boss kris.. hahhaa... she cute loh.. say " Jing Xian also called back to work morning tomorrow... i worked morning.. come work morning lah...." i was like... wat is ur pt.. hahaha.. i was originally working nite... then past few days.. got calls from Wence(V rare), Bee (nx time dun wan pick up her call le... ) hahahaha... and kris... wence ask me work.. so i was like.. hai.. okay.. sat then.. then bee call me to work on fri..but i off school at 7.30 (and she forgot!!!).. then she say can lah.. then okay.. then kris ask me to shift to morning on sat.. by then.. i was doing perl and a little fed up le.. so when she call.. i was like... hai... do as u like... (dun wan to argue or anything.. plain tired)... hahaha... TO ALL MY BOSSES... (although only kris haf this blog)... PLEASE EMPLOY MORE STAFF... TO WORK WHEN WE NOT FREE.. AND NOT WORK WHEN WE FREE... hahaha... then went home try to do perl but still cannot... headache by then.... then finally went to bed at 5 am... after being chased to bed xian...

sat 2 oct
Alarm clock no wale up.. in the end i woke up le.. then call xian.. hai.. lousy alarm clock.. went to work (originally got breakfast but instead haf to tabao..) late but heck care... work... box.. haha... jk.. cb.. haha... okay lah.. was practically doing stuff like cleaning, washing and cooking... the morning was so quiet... being some time since i worked morning... hahaha... was okay lah.. due to a loose wire and lack of sleep.. wen a little hyper today.. haha.. then bz in the afternoon (mildred ur fault... hahahaha) hahaha.. then finally saw legendary sickly bee... still look pale (bishan still need u.. u sick better rest lah.. work work work.. hai... the worse is u spread to us lata how.. no body to work then u headache...)ahahahhahahaahah.. then went for dinner at Cartel wif xian.. eat until so full and we were the crappers.... eat so long.. then go home and rest....

sun 3 oct
yawn.. slept early last nite.. was originally wanting to wake up at 12 to do perl.. but slept on.. hahaha... my back up plan no wake me up either.. nvm.. had a good rest... then did nth much today... was chatting on msn... then xian lah.. make me cry... ur fault hor.. dun u dare say no.. hahahhaa... lata according to her.. she also cry... both of us.. similar.. in terms of character and we both haf sad sad memories... (hers a little more sad then mine) *better dun think abt the memories when u read this... lata u cry i not responsible*... haha.. then slack loh... hahaha....
study for IMM...

mon 4 oct
now blogging.. going to study more... and Good luck to those in TP.. exams are here.. Jia You!!!!

-=:agu:=- Education is the route to Good Jobs... Attitude is the road to Success....

Monday, September 27, 2004

stubborn

hi bloggie.. was having a small argument again wif xian today... hai... the usual blame undertaking makes both STUBBORN us to argue... no one willing to let the other take the blame.. haha.. my stupid call causes all this... hai.... anyway.. nth big happen.. juz made small arguement. haha.. bickering if u wan to say it.. but inspire me during boring math lec to write this...

Anger & frustration engulf close friends of mine due to me being stubborn...
Shouldering the blame is my way of being responsible... my method to atone for my sins...
Yet, friends regard my way and method as being difficult...
Intentions at first is undone, & causes more burden to bear, more blame to undertake..
As unintentionally, guilt rides in on both parties and wounded our friendship...
Perhapes, the stubborness in me should be dispersed & i shall exist as a person with no backbone....
But my moral views forbid the exit of my stubborness...
Neither will i seek forgiveness, as my pride is too big to speak of that hardest word...
Sorry...
But my dear Friends, i am glad u extend your understanding for me and i always remember that...

-=:agu:=- The Word "Sorry" is made up by Man to seek forgiveness from others and relieve own's guilt....