pissed off

hi bloggie... damn pissed off... saw acadamic calendar... wah stupid sia... cut my vacation 1 to 2 week... then nx time.. my sis holiday i study... wth... angry.... i read te newspaper article b4... but nv thot will affect us... #$%^&*... angry... hai.... oh ya was workign yesterdae... then xian got cut on her finger... hafiz too... poor things... then i work at box... nth much happen... boring day...then take pay slip... hee hee... got $$ again.... now thinking of playing pool... hee hee

-=:agu:=- a verbal wound is as bad as a physical one... or is it worse???

played pool

hi bloggie... woke up at 7.30 and go skool for cell bio presentation... thank god finish liao... then go and play pool... so fun... first time play.. and think got beginner luck... then went for dinner... haha at pool game... i v lucky... rebound ball get in... although 1st time playing... hook to the game....

oh ya,
P.S.: Guys, i am betta liao... v sad coz i happen to noe sum truth but better liao... dun worry.... i am not say moody or wat... juz sad... so dun wurry

-=:agu:=- i Still Prefer happinEss... as i Can Forget my Worries....

stress day

hi bloggie... had an eventful dae...

woke up at 12.00... and watch some tv and do research for my project... and while waiting for my friend email... for the project did some revision and juz laze around... and wrote blog... then left home at 5pm to go gv... muz be thinking y go there rite... actually went down to see something interesting... and i studied in the locker... while waiting for mick to go.... in the end talk wif ting, peh bout the good old days... and they went for supper... didn't go... see i go supper one in a blue moon... hee hee... see lai in "better spirit" coz adida msg me said he was not in the afternoon.... well... i clarify wif adida liao... alan is the one who say hard to contact joel... so adida did not really said tt his line is cancelled... i believe her... coz if she would be the one babbling around i will not say anything in the first place.... beside... i juz said his line going to be cancelled tt's all...

presentation in the mornign yet i haven sleep.... die ah...



-=:agu:=- crying no longer cum at will... tears flow down my cheek everytime i think bout this....

stupid me

hi bloggie... think i am a major screw up... becoz i found out a lot of stupid things i did...

first lai,
i didn't expect things to happen this way.. adida and rene juz ask me wat happen to joel... i juz said hard to contact him and his line is cancelled... tt's all... and ph found out bout it... now lai think i tell everyone his secret... but no loh... i noe my limits... sorry is all i can say... lai... v sorry... hope u still continue share ur worries... but if u dun wan to tell me is ok... coz i lost ur trust.. juz tt i wan u to be happy

then pl,
she said things that made me realise wat a fool i haf been... i thot i was sensitive enuff to detect it... but i was not... i finally understood things i nv knew... i nv expect it to be this way... maybe i dun deserve to gif advise... i am not even aware of wat is happening... wat a screw up am i... i am sorry pl... yet sorry is not a way to make up or atone anything... sorry is juz a way to express my guilt and my ignorance... i realli did not want it end this way....

li was feeling terrible last nite... i found out all the above... i am the biggest fool... juz when lai start to tok to me bout his prob... this happen... pl told me things made me feel little, guilty and made me realise how self centered i am...

all i can is sorry... but sorry is not the word u will accept...
forgiveness u may give
forgetting it, will be an hard task...

i dun noe y am i writing all this here... i am such a screw up... and i thot i am a good fren.... i was feeling guilty? yes... angry? a little... for angry wif myself, angry wif not being able to see all this... sad? yes i am sad... disappointed in myself...

think i shld go reflect

oh ya,
JY: WHAT THE HECK HAPPEN TO U... I DUN WAN U TO BE SCREW UP LIKE ME... CAN U LEAVE A NOTE OR SAY SOMTHING... I DUN WAN TO RESORT TO CALLING U... TELL ME WAT"S WRONG ASAP...

-=:agu:=- being naive dosen't mean being tactless

add on

hi again... juz to add on... saw ur blogs liao

so leaving comments

pl: seems to me... u haf matured another level... and i believe u can be semsible enuff to do things on ur own... i haf faith in u... sorry bout ur grand dad... i bet things will be fine... *hugs and kisses*
cy: i am sorry bout ur bdae... i was hoping u haf a happy 18 bdae even we are not there... and i am not stressed out by ur problems... i am glad u guys share it wif me... it made me feel impt... and i do share my problems wif u guys thru blog... i may not be the one toking... but i am the one listerning... and the one who gives advise... all i wish is tt u guys are happy and find my advice good...
jy: i still go to ur blog... secretly hoping it will be reopened... it pained my heart when u closed it... maybe u are having a hard time... maybe u haf shared ur prob wif sumone else... but can u leave me a note to make me feel better...? i noe i am nosey... but i am worried my gal...
st: y almost cried when u see my blog... i did not write anything sad inside i guess... i juz write out my feelings tt's all... and y u want to cry... which entry can tell me? hee hee... but i am alrite... if i am stress i think i will shut myself... beside... rene has advised me to be patient... so dun worry guys...

P.S.: guys... my life has being betta day by day since i noe u... i am not sad... neither am i stressed out by ur complains and prob... sometimes i sleep late at night is not because i stress but trying to be nosey and solve ur prob... sometimes... stuff can be solved by urself... u juz need sumone to analyse for u or even sumone juz to hear u whining... i am glad. i can be tt sumone... i am not an impt person... but what u guys did made me feel impt... will luv u guys... and if i am sad... i noe u are there for me... i won't lose out ok... hee hee... *hugs*