knife

Two knives plunged my heart
Leaves two portal
Two more portals for sadness to enter
Heart aching and bleed

agu

many things happen...
i tried to as much as i could.. perhaps expectation too high... coz my heart to bleed...
Sorry is not the word... Understand my stand, and u will forgive me...
quoting from jason " u will meet different frenz and sometimes, somehow u will neglect some"
but that does not mean i forgotten u...
i am very relieved with wat jason said... so did wat lai said
quoting from lai " u tried to plan everything nice nice to make everyone happy "
jus now toking to lai... i realise that what he said was true... i did attend the gathering.. actually all if not most... then y did u still say that.. do u noe.. how it hurts me...
juz hope the two knives in my heart can be taken out with no injury inflicted.. perhaps a scar.. but not hurt...

i sm v drained, i dun wish to explain further... for one whom i noe read my blog often... i am sorry... maybe, i can't fulfil ur expectation.. its hard on u.. its hard on everyone else... its juz a phase we need to pass, but its doesn't mean we will forget or neglect that phase... timing is crucial, for i have done my part, its only urs to realise my effort... for ur knive hurts me even more... deeper... for the other, whom i dunno whether u still come here or not, pls consider my stand... u said if we want to have a perfect friend, go find one... is that the same reason y u gave up on us,... on me... i dunno...

-=:agu:=- Perhaps i should just leave for a while....

emotions

Hurts when you don't bother
Hurts when you are not there
Hurts in the heart
Where the aching won't go

Maybe it wasn't wise to invest on emotions and feelings
Maybe concentration shouldn't be on you
Maybe I need a new life
Where the aching will go

Perhaps, the heart is the portal to Sadness
When you came, You close the portal
But once you leave, the portal opens once again
Where the aching is back to stay

agu

Just a piece i thot... DUN THINK TOO MUCH ABOUT IT ppl... lata i get paranoid tags again... haha... enjoy.. but do comment..

-=:agu:=- Its not wise to invest in emotions

cycling

hi Bloggie!!! hmmm...now a lil tired and i think i may develop fever soon... haha... hmmm... fever but hyperactive? haha.. oh well... reason being lack of sleep, rain, lack of sleep again, cold weather... hmmm and lack of sleep... hahaha... ok.. i am being real lame here *slap face*... okok... *sorry.. i go get the real agu back*

ok.. back.. back to original style i guess.. well, as i mentioned, i maybe running a fever soon due to the rain and lack of sleep.. haha..

the nite b4, went pubbing.. in the end Mr. Peh Yip Seng.. aka peh peh, aka jasmine.. opps =x jason i mean... *sorry.. think too hyper liao* cannot make it.. have to go to the temple nx day.. but i was thinking otherwise *match of man u last nite!* haha.. then in the end is me, peg, lai, cy, reagan, audrey (cy's sis) and rick (audrey's bf) hmmm.. met up wif peg, went to holland together and had a quick bite at BK b4 spotting for places.. at first we wanted to go breko.. but packed! so is wala wala *hai!* then finally found space at harry's @holland V.. haha.. quite a nice place.. i quite liked it! haha.. had Singapore Sling while waiting for the others to come.. peg haf 1/2 pint of kelkenny.. the others took so so so (times another 1,000,000 pls) to come... almost got chase by the pub owner.. haha.. coz we took up the table while waiting.. hmm, nice experience pubbing wif these few ppl.. laughing like no body biz... killer jokes.. and hmmm... some not so funny ones.. haha.. i had another cup of Purple Haze... hmmm.. taste like u add alcohol to Ribena! haha.. hmm.. still like Singapore Sling... pity we didn't take pic.. after at ard 2 plus, went over to breko.. had a bite.. Just Milk for me (tt's the name on the menu!) haha.. its... just milk... lame hor.. and they haf just w'ich... wat can i say... LAME!! hmmm *super not me again.... darn.. dun tell me the alcohol starts to kick start now!! * sorry... hmmm... oh then slack.. i looked real worn out.. coz.. i am! haha.. then there is the enterance of a cockaroach.. that amuses me alot... hee hee... the cockroach was on audrey's back (gross) then she didn't know and swept it on the floor.. then she realise was the infamous xiao qiang.. lai was beside her.. so she grab's lai's leg and say cockroach.. but she didn't noe lai is *ehem* more terrified.. haha.. then lai juz stand and walk to reagan's side *direct opp. of his original position.. i and reagan was figuring where the cockroach went.. and nx thing we knew.. lai was sitting beside reagan.. haha... so funny... all got a shock.. but oh well.. it perk everyone up! haha.. had food and home sweet home... totally crash out when i reach home.. tired! haha.. reach home at 3.30 in the morning!! oh gosh...


hmmm.. woke up and head off to meet ting and joc for cycling lesson... ate at mac.. and head down to pasir ris.. did lots of walking *the bicycle kiosk was down for renovation* so walked alll the way to Costa sand tt side de kiosk.. different ppl tending too.. haha.. change so much!?hmm.. then teach le an hour... hmmm.. joc.. if u are reading this.. pls jus step the paddle! u can balance for goodness sake! excellent one too!!! *breathe in.. relax* sorry.. real hyper now.. hee hee.. then rain starts coming in.. then i pedal the extreme small bike back and run to shelter.. too big a size me.. dun wan to get others drench.. so run loh.. then home... wanted to take a snooze.. but was on msn instead.. had fun chatting wif yj.... hmmm... juz reading blogs and surfing the virtual world.. haha.. and i watched miss congenality juz now... real liked it! it brings back memories... fun laughing.. haha... luv tt movie!!

ok.. i am done... think either i get to bed b4 the fever develops fully.. or juz laze ard... hmmmm....

-=:agu:=- When you are standing on the edge of a cliff, a step forward is not progress...

Exams Over!!!

Hi bloggie... finally the exams are over... before the results are out.. let me juz indulge myself a lil.. of coz there is the proj.. but i'm sure things will work out fine...

hmm.. instru was another killer.. my mistake not to look up some of the exercise. hmm... too late for regrets.. crossing fingers to pass... hmm.... so is ACMB.. some nv study come out.. and acmb a topic i nv listen in class.. lets hope i can pass the paper.. pls pray for me.. haha.. hmmm after paper... my buddy was v sweet.. haha.. she accompanied me for a session of pool and had lunch.. real nice... v lucky to have known her.. and... long time no play pool le.. lil rusty on skill.. haha.. actually.. after school shld be go out wif my poly de classmates de.. coz after exam is FYP (Final Year Project) and some of my class peeps need to go to other place to do their proj, like NUS, those kind.. and may not be in same class.. originally scheduled to play mahjong at their place.. but... one by one back out... from meeting second half.. to juz wan to go home.. oh well.. thanks bud.. u are called out on short notice =) haha... lata... pubbing wif cy, reagan, lai, peh, peg... haha... cool....

oh ya.. i changed the song to Boulevard Of Broken Dreams by Green Day... hahaha.....

-=:agu:=- Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

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My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah
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I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's f**ked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

[repeat #]

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

[repeat #]